i'm officially a final year student now..mentally, i don't even feel that old or mature enough! we have been bombarded by career services emails with a slew of networking sessions available, which just reinforces my fear that i still don't know wad i wanna do in future! however, the many people who have spoken to me have reiterated the importance to find something that suits me, and not go for the most glamorous/high-paying jobs..haha then i will go set up a handicrafts shop already! hehe..

but anyway, i'm somewhat glad to be bugged constantly at the back of my mind to really cherish this last year in uni..i can already imagine all the things i'll miss..mugging with friends, going for lessons together, walking from place to place, eating lunch with my friends, meeting up with rspid peeps, and simply having the flexibility to choose how i wanna spend my time before/after school! next time, i'll be bound by rules of my workplace from 9 to 6, work mondays to fridays, and there'll be no more school holidays!!

i have also attended my first lesson at nus! for the only mod i'm taking there hehe..financial markets..i think the teacher is not bad! her pace is just right for us to absorb what she's saying, and i feel the lessons are gonna be very insightful cos i personally know nuts about the financial markets..so it's quite like a spoon-feeding of information! hehe..i met this super nice and friendly girl outside the classroom cos we were both early, who totally dispelled all my fears of not being able to find a group or friend to sit with..she let me sit beside her and also join their project group! :)

speaking of nus, i so wish enghui was still here! then i'll be able to meet her every wed at least..only managed to speak to her once on msn since she left for sweden, but it seems that the 2 singaporean girls with her are really taking care of her so i'm glad! :) do e-mail us and update your blog okie dear? take more photos of your room, your school and the beautiful scenery there for us to see!! bin and i went to the airport to see her off, and her parents gave us a lift home! feel so bad cos her mum and ahma had to squeeze behind with us! :/ hope my wifey is not feeling too lonely now..since sinnie's bro also flew back to US already..

rspid went to rj ytd for myg sports day! wow they installed so many new things since we left..i think the school's really pretty now, and even more conducive as a place to stay back and study in! they now have mini waterfalls, biodiversity ponds, outdoor basins surrounded by flowers, new pull-up bars, new fancy railings at the amphi, and of cos, air con in classrooms! the students there are so lucky! but i heard about the extravagant school fees they are paying now too haha..everything comes with a price i guess..

somehow, of all the times i've been back to rj since i graduated, yesterday was really the first time i felt so emo by all the nostalgia different parts of the school presented..perhaps it was cos i was muilian's teacher, and constantly lagging behind the rest (with her slow pace of walking) gave me the opportunity to walk pass the different corners of the school at a speed which allowed so many memories to rush back simply to my mind..somehow when sufficient time has passed, i'm only able to recall the pleasant memories..and i could just see myself at a specific spot doing specific things with my friends! from hanging out at yz's exclusive homeroom, playing chapteh wif 3m peeps almost everywhere around school, just eating at the canteen, mugging at the windy area, having PE lessons at the track or indoor sports hall..i've really never felt so nostalgic about rj before..the previous times i came back with my friends, it was filled with playing ball games/chapteh/card games that i never really had the time to stop and recall all my memories within the school..nostalgia is such a bitter-sweet feeling i'm not sure if it makes me feel happy (that i have such memories in the first place) or sad (that these are all just part of the past and i probably will never relive them again)..

i stopped by the odac room...really looks quite different..much neater of course..and no more hamsters...i remember how cute and round our hamsters were! maybe that's the reason they couldn't live long too.. :( there is now a long table in the centre of the room with some pots..looks more spacious now with less items cluttering the floor..sigh i really miss odac..so many corners of the school just reminded me of how we spent time together doing PT, at different parts of the school! be it the track, or walking towards the classroom blocks to climb stairs..i really miss odac batch 21!! gave me so much beautiful memories in my jc days to look back on..

our trainees were adorable as usual ytd..at the end, kokhui amazed us with his repertoire of local songs! belting out song after song so excitedly, even more so after we cheered and clapped for him! looks like muilian is not the only one who enjoys singing so much! hehe..and then muilian and joanne were super self-entertained by 'shooting' others with their 'gun' formed by their fingers..when yawen pretended to fall from their shoot they were SUPER happy la and kept trying to shoot her over and over again! hehe..but anyway, i really think that muilian is facing problems with her right knee..she always complains that it's pain, and from the way she walks down stairs and sits down, it really seems to be painful for her..anyone got any solutions to reduce this joint pain??

on another note, vips is back!! :D goodness i'm gonna see him for 3 consecutive days in a row! met yk & him for dinner on fri, when anyi later joined us and we had a rare htht within the 4 of us..he came to rj to supposedly mug with me ytd after my cca ended but we just kept talking! (what he calls an un-induced htht as compared to fri's haha) in the end i didn't even read a single word of my textbook la (waste edmund's effort for carrying it around for me! haha)..and being the wimp he is, he had to go home at 8pm!! !!! and tonite, we're meeting for dinner again! with a few other 3m peeps...hopefully i'll be productive enough today so i won't feel guilty about not doing anything the entire weekend!

our impromptu dinner at ajisen!

looks like vips never changed..sigh

by the pretty waterfall at the new rj biodiversity pond!!

water lily in the pond :D

hehe my new model in my modelling agency- join the ranks of liowliow tan. mural on one of the 3rd floor walls..

hehe pink lady! :p i asked vips to bring a chapteh along to rj, and he went to buy one!! but its such a lousy chapteh! which chapteh is made of raffia string and can be used as a fringe!! but it was so ex for a chapteh so i was touched he actually got it..

i wanted to blog about the movie, Up, too! i watched it wif binbin, and coincidentally the rspid peeps were 2 rows behind us! :) i really liked the movie..and to me, there is no one part of the movie which is less meaningful than another cos throughout the movie, there was this constant melancholic overtone of how much fred missed his late wife..despite the comedric effects, we are reminded that the whole point of their journey was the old man's desire to fulfill his wife's only wish (or so he presumed) to live near paradise falls..i found it extremely poignant when he kissed her forehead when she was on the hospital bed, and again when he kissed her photo on the wall..like he could be grumpy towards everyone else, but he was always gentle and sweet towards his wife..hehe and i like kevin's babies!!

hehe oh ya i felt quite proud of the present i made for diana darling :) first time i sewed something so 'big' from scratch, and it can actually function! hehe..though i gave her really belatedly :x

jiayou everyone for school! :)

back to being slack!

my no-worries-at-all days are finally here, as anticipated!

my internship finally ended last friday, 'finally' not so much cos i wasn't enjoying it, but more of cos i wanted to just relax and enjoy some personal time before school starts..i guess i will be doing much more reflections when i start on my PA report (hopefully tmr) but on the whole, i guess i really enjoyed it, mostly cos of a really wonderful team..initially i felt only my buddy was really warm and friendly, but after a while, when the rest started opening up to me, everyone was really nice to me! and what i respected most about this internship is that they really trusted me with their daily BAU and i was doing things that they would have had to do if i didn't do them anyway..and i like it cos i like to see purpose in what i am doing..on the not so positive side, made me realise that i may not really want a career that entails such routine work, as much as i thought i would have? i always thought i wouldn't mind doing something routine and simple, as long as it had a purpose to it, just like how i really enjoyed being a patient services clerk at sgh..but i guess the difference is that the latter allowed me to meet and serve different people, such that it didn't really seem that mundane after all...as of now, prob because i've only been at the job for 2 months, i still take on tasks enthusiastically and diligently..but what will i see of my attitude if i've been at it for 5 years? hmm..

i may be going back for lunch with my buddy and two other interns (one still there, one already ended like me) on friday! :)

on to more bimbotic stuff, i soft rebonded my hair! haha omg..it all started at shaoqin's party, when diana, chujie & i were discussing what we should do together the next day..and chujie suggested rebonding! and the 3 of us decided to be part of this life-changing event together!! hehe..so chujie and i rebonded, while diana cut bangs!! still not used to having straight hair..waiting for a few more days to pass so i can tie it up! haha..so glad we all did it together, if not i would never have had the courage to do sth like that!

before!

i think this photo of chujie is so cute! hehe

after! both of them look so pretty!! :) (i look horrendous so i'm not posting my photo here)

and diana lent me her twilight book! i finished it in 2 days! and hopeless me went on to watch the movie online! i guess what draws so many fans (in girls) to the story is how idealistic it is..a super good-looking guy with all the strength, speed and talents (which can make a girl feel more than secure) is nonchalant towards everyone else, but deeply in love with this one girl..sometimes it IS painful to read/watch such stories cos you know it can't happen in real life! and being vampires together seems so perfect cos you can never age and simply be with your loved one forever..

hehe blabbering so much today!

hmm..zk's at hall camp now..he's in hall 6! glad for him cos it's near all the sports facilities so i'm sure he'll enjoy himself..the thought of him at foc makes me feel nostalgic though..the slight awkwardness when first trying to break the ice..the enthusiasm when you see potentially good friends in some ppl..though till now, wad i don't like about such camps is the need to be enthusiastic when you're actually tired, and cheering! i don't like cheering!! haha..but yup hope he finds some good friends inside! jk is with him anyway..quite excited about both of them being roomies since they've been the best of friends since primary school! :) quite excited about seeing quite a few of them coming to nbs, just NEXT WEEK! hehe..zk, jk, sh and anyi! :) can all lunch together hehehe..

went to nus today to get my tutorial slot for the sole module i'm taking there next sem..sometimes i wonder why i still bother to take just one mod! i guess for the experience and also to lessen my workload in sem 2?? haha i dunno! but i just wanted to say thank you to enghui and jingjing..for being really great friends in just accompanying me to the business school to do sth so trivial which does not matter to them at all! esp jingxiu who came all the way from home and went wif me to imm just for me to get some materials tooo..i just felt really glad cos such friends are so rare..friends who don't mind travelling distances with you while you run some errands, just so to spend more time with ya..riends who don't make me feel bad and keep wanting to apologize for wasting their time cos we're so comfortable with each other..such friends are really far and few and i must cherish them! :)