haha yay! my hotmail's finally upgraded to 250mb..up til ytd it was only 2 mb and it was ALWAYS full! then everyone else said they had 250mb..then i was wondering why they neglected my account..haha so after yrs of procrastinating i finally wrote to them and told them bout my problem! haha and guess wad! it was all because i set my location under my profile to afghanistan la! n apparently it'n not a country which supports the upgrading of the storage space or sth..haha..so it was my own fault all along..but very good! at least i dont have to delete my emails painfully now!

ahh chapteh's so fun! all of us should play more often! but i think im quite lousy all my muscles are aching now..haha i dont even get muscle aches from pe..so it shows that chapteh is more physically demanding so we should all play chapteh for pe! and not those fitness management stuff!

yay im finally in the mood to blog again though i dunno what to write also
but must faster write while the happiness stays! :)

getting something that was almost once lost back can really make me happy
it just makes me appreciate it more
but that is bad..does that mean i have to keep almost losing things before i can really start to cherish them? and i think i'll slowly start forgetting to cherish them once things go back to their normal pace too..haiss

but anyway, this is supposed to be a happy post!
i'm happy today!
it's been so long since i last felt that everything in my life is going smoothly
nothing worth worrying or being sad about at all
ok maybe my imperfections, but that's another matter..something i can control anyway

haha kbox was fun!! my first time..haha and time just flew by like that..but friday was a really really nice day..haha we were at least slightly more hip and happening for once right! :p and it was so fulfilling going to suntec! though i hardly ever go there..cos i was reading bout some art exhibition in the papers that morning..then i was thinking it'd be nice if i could go see..budden i never go see such stuff..then when we reached suntec and roamed about for quite a while just trying to find an eatery (haha!) i realized that the exhibition was actually THERE!! then i was so happy..but i couldnt find that art piece they featured in the newspapers though...and i was very impressed by these 2 pieces of art made out of paper cuttings!! it was really very intricate lor..i dunno how they cut until so xi..like those kind of cards they have to use laser to cut out the design one..haha ok i think all these sound very boring..

then later kwa came! our saviour and guide! haha i think if not we'll spend another hour finding the kbox or sth..and she brought some discount card along too!

nway, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ZHIXIAN!! hope you had a nice one...

:( i feel like im teething i wanna bite someone!!

seeing all of you again was like the highlight of my whole week

school's getting dreadful

i've refrained from blogging so many times this week cos i know it'll all be negative stuff nway

i miss nanyang so much. if only everything now could be as simple as they were in the past..

perception
is such an all-encompassing word

ok sorry i guess i was being oversensitive as usual..but im glad i had the chance to talk things out..though i really never expected myself to even come close to letting it all out..

i really dont wanna be like this, but i cant help but get affected easily..guess its just in my nature.. :( haiz

and to xiaogui! cheer up! stop thinking u're lousy cos u're really NOT! and ur 'latest phenomenon' of twitching cheeks damn funny la..anyway i was listening to the radio just now and some guy said that twitching parts of your body like ur eyelids or fingers etc. are a sign of stress! so just relax and dont be so nervous la! the world's not out to judge us..and the worst thing about you is that the more u start reflecting about such stuff the worse you feel, and you develop misconceptions about yourself which aren't true at all! must be happy k? you still have us no matter wad! :)

haha binbin tagged me..cliched stuff as usual!

Rules: Tagged person must come up with 8 points about his/her perfect lover.... must include the gender of ur lover...

anyway, binbin! sorry i'm not gonna do it properly la..haha..aiya think the most basic thing is for him to have good morals and be nice to me can oredy..of cos must love me too!

haha which reminds me of that cards thing zit was doing for me to predict the qualities of my future husband..haha it showed that he doesnt love me!!! warghhhh so sad right

haha ok i think i sound damn bimbotic talking about such stuff i shall stop it!


dinner yesterday was nice as usual..so happy binbin finally agreed to meet us again! haha! sorry i didnt go early enough to study wif u at ny lib..i would love to go in again but i dont wanna get stared at! and to ouou! please dont eat some spicy tomyam noodles if u cant take the spice la!! so LOSER lorrr hehe..and i noticed a stark difference between hc and rj again..when we went in ytd, it was quite dark and late oredy, but it was still full of activity..ppl training for netball, the huang cheng ppl all having dinner together..xiaogui's junior even offered us pizza! haha too bad we were too full oredy..ya it was just warm and homely la..ppl staying back not for academic purposes..in rj during this hour, ppl would most probably either be mugging in the canteen or in the library..there's no mass activity to bond the people together..even hc's canteen which had birdshit on the tables seemed more romantic..haha! but rj is still nice for me la cos i think my class is nice..at least i have ppl like yk and zhixian to stay back wif me just for fun..to mug together in class or just stone around..i think it'd be scary if i were in a class whose ppl would just zao home or off for cca or sth..then i can imagine myself alone in the classroom still packing my bag with no one else around anymore..think 3m is somewhat like 4/9..apart from the fact that there are guys now la..cos i find the ppl nice on the whole..and there's not really an outcast or whatever, which i think really sucks..

haha ok i dunno where im heading towards..just felt my life is quite blessed.. :)

why cant i just be more mature about things?


i think being nonchalant and detached is good.