haha i feel so stupid ouou just told me how i can still set the time of my entries!

stayover was nice! 4 of us squeezed onto one queensized bed..we were lying like logs la! not much space to move about..haha but v cosy! talked a lot..and we played daidee too! and xiaogui and ouou were so blur about the game as usual..haha but im very pro rite! :p hahahahah

why am i always feeling so sleepy nowadays?? sighh

and vincent just reminded me i have 10 days left only! arghhh and i hardly touched my holiday homework! shit la..i dunno why i keep having the impression i have a lot of time left..

and yukit and i made a pact to be muggers next yr! :D

hmm im lazy to continue..shall write in my diary instead.

my productive day!

haha realized my 5 random things arent that random after all..cos ouou said she knew all of them already! haiss don care la..

nway the time function here is spoilt! i cant set the time at which i wrote this to be the correct time..haha but oso don care la...

went to JE lib wif bin today..soo nice! its a nice place there..there were no free tables left so we just used one of those comfy black leather seats as a table and we sat on the floor haha...and i started eating my hello panda (again!) haha..right in front of the librarian! but of cos skilful me din get caught..yayy was quite productive today..ok actually not really..but much better as compared to the many days when i just slacked away and did NOTHING..haha..but we ended up toking a lot! but of cos it was nice toking to bin again..hehe

and bin's so funny la! cos as we were walking to the bus stop, i saw that my 178 opposite had just came! so i told bin that im gonna take 15 min to walk across the bridge such that my bus will arrive when i finally reach the bus stop..hahaa and dunno why (as usual) she was so tickled! haha and u noe wad she suggested! she asked me to take 3 steps backwards wif every step forward! hahahahha then i said lidat walk by the end of 15 min i'll end up at the jec toilet..haha and she din understand! she still said that eventually i'll end up at the bus stop! hahahah n later i was demonstrating her 3 steps backward thing to show her what it meant..and she was damn amused again...bin's so easily amused!! hahaha :p

and i waited damn long for my bus! argh

yayy so happy gonna stayover at ouou's hse tmr! haha im CAMP COMMANDANT!! :P haha ok im being lame..but all of u better obey me!

and kwa's in bangkok rite? enjoy urself! :)

and to lowly, im not sure if u read my blog too..but i oso wanna thank u for ALWAYS being so sweet and concerned..never failing to check on me whenever my msn nick sounds sad or worrying..haha..thanks a lot dearr! i really appreciate it! and how u bother to type loads of stuff on msn though its very tedious just to share bout what's happening in ur life wif me! i know many other ppl will not really bother to..cos like they may not see the point after not having kept in touch for so long..yaa i miss nygg a lot too!! much much more than i ever expected myself to..haiss..really learnt a lot from it..and I MISS YOU TOO!! :) must must meet up soon k! hope its not just something we always say but never get down to doing..hmmm

5 random things

Rules of the Game
1. Post 5 weird/random things about yourself.
2. At the end of the quiz, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this and leave a comment 'you are tagged' on their tagboard and tell them to read your blog.

haha binbin tagged me! im so bored that i decided to do this in the end..

ok 5 random things..

1. im kinda awed by nature..especially when im able to see beautiful scenery or just wake up to a sunny morning/afternoon..when i draw the blinds and see that its all sunny outside i'll tend to take more glances at the grass and trees which look yellow under the sun..and the bright white light reflecting off the white walls of humepark 1..even at the sky..when i see fluffy white clouds i'll just look away and then make myself look back at the clouds to refeel that moment when i first saw the clouds..haha ok sounds stupid i noe..and i enjoy going to stock x-change and just downloading nice scenery photos!

2. (ok im seriousy having trouble thinking of the 2nd one) oh! i usually don smile with my mouth open for 3 reasons! 1stly, before i put braces, i had bugs bunny teeth! after i put braces, my teeth would look dirty from far if i smiled with my mouth open..3rdly i think i just look weird and fat if i smile with my mouth open..haha yupp

3. im quite a stoner person..unlike many people my age now who are always filled with activities and every minute must be spent doing sth, i really don mind just sitting or lying down and not do anything..but stone or ponder la..its quite like wasting my life away cos im just wasting time..but sumhow i guess my lazy nature just lets me get on with stoning without feeling guilty..its the most relaxing and unstressed thing to do really!

4. i rather take the bus alone, especially when the journey is long..i find it tiring trying to maintain a conversation with someone im not close too..if the person beside me is close to me, all the more i wont have to talk..yupp i rather just remain silent and stone, listen to music or look out of the window..

5. im quite stingy with my money! i dunno why too..since young..maybe cos my parents don really give me fixed weekly allowances or sth..but they just give me money whenever i use up those in my wallet..so i feel obliged not to make use of this privilege and anyhow spend..yupp then my relatives and family frens used to call me kiam ku last time! ahh..haha..but i guess im much better now oredy..

ok..ehh since ouou and bin have done, i shall get yunhua, yk, zhixian, the person whose blog is private (you noe who u are! :p haha) and shifu! haha i don read many of my frens' blogs actually..

okie byebye!

the weirdest dream ever

omgomg i dunno wad's wrong with me..i usually have dreams every night but this time i've had dreams close to nightmares 3 days in a row already! and its strange how firstly i can recall the dreams and secondly i can link each funny thing that appeared in the dreams to passing objects or thoughts i had during the day..even the most random stuff!

and its really scary how i thought i had woken up..and even told my parents about the scary dream..and later (truly) woke up again to realise i had only told them about my dream IN MY DREAM! and it sounds funny, but if im urgent to pee or sth in real life, i'll naturally feel damn urgent in my dream..and then i'll frantically keep using the toilet in the dream, but still feel urgent even after i've just peed! its quite a xing ku feeling actually...then i dreamt i woke up, was thankful it was all a dream, found myself on my bed and went to the toilet..in the toilet, i tried to pee though it felt a little constrained..but i convinced myself i had really woken up (unlike previous instances where i had woken up only in my dream) by pressing my toes against the floor..and later i woke up i realised AGAIN I WAS STILL IN THE DREAM! arghhh

ok back to my scary dreams..i'll just recount last nite's one..i dreamt it was the end of the world..and what really freaked me out was that everyone was mentioning the word apocalypse in the dream/nightmare..and when i really woke up i checked the dictionary and realised it really meant the end of the world! i never thought i knew this word in real life..but the fact that it could appear in my dream, though it was told to me by others in the dream, means that i actually knew the word! its like somebody putting this word into my head through the dream..i dunno how to explain..it's just really weird how the word appeared for the first time in my head out of nowhere, and its definition i got during the dream was totally accurate! bleahh

ya so it was quite scary..sumhow it was during the odac expedition, but in some setting i've never seen before..and its supposed to be malaysia..like the party hall in kampung kiau combined with some expo? i dunno! suddenly, the ceiling started cracking and falling in parts.. i tried to run out of the building but lightning was striking every part of the ground..haha damn movie-like i know..so i told shuting who was with me that we should hide under the tables or sth..haha! like what we're supposed to do during a war attack..then later sumhow the weather or wadeva calmed down..but we knew we could do nothing about the end of the world..and i was suggesting to shuting REALLY SERIOUSLY in the dream that we should go climb some high building to jump down..the easiest way to die..rather than live in extreme fear for the next few days and wait for the world to really end..and i was really hoping she'd approve of my suggestion..ok when i look back now it seems really funny..but not at all in that scary dream! then i woke up (in the dream argh) and was really relieved it was all a dream..when i received this sms from dawn er! kinda random..that things were better on her side (she's in australia)..though her area was a little flooded..but things were sth like that singapore..singapore was supposed to be not very affected by the phenomenon..haha! i dunno why too..then i was really confused..was it a dream or not?!? cos even dawn could sms me about it! then i sumhow was in her house..like next scene or sth..and her place was only slightly flooded..bleahh i dunno..its like some exciting movie la! can go win some award oredy..hahaaaa

hmmm and laddie was still around in the dream..sumhow in the dream i knew he was supposed to have gone away..but the doctors managed to prolong his life or sth..and i made sure i spent every moment i could with him in the dream..haiss i really miss you laddieboy..

and i slacked the entire day away..really din do any work at all! one of the most piggish days..and again, when i slept, i dreamt that i recounted my scary dream to binbin..and i woke up later to realise its all a dream again!

argh..i think my ability to consciously get out of my dreams is getting from bad to worse! once i feel that the scenario im in is a little surreal, i will try very hard to open my eyes and check if its a dream..and i think i've done it too often..then the dreams (like bacteria) gained resistance or sth..so now when i try to wake up..and think that i've really woken up, i have only done so in the dream..its quite scary..if i keep on waking up in the dream but am never really able to get out of it..like some maze..so now i get really confused as to whether i've really woken up..cos my dreams have cheated my too many times! i may even still be in a dream as i'm typing this now..

haha ok this is one of the longest entries i've ever written..but i really feel damn strongly bout last nite's nightmare! warghhh

haha hello!!! this is DEBORAH here!!! DEBORAHHH TANNNNN!! haha i am supposed to do odac stuff but i am slacking now...shucks i dun want present the stuff on sat!! ahhhh

such a nice time together..

haha obviously that was NOT written by me..

and omg ouou and bin came over for like 3 days in a row la! like some routin lidat..but they came to keep me company..so nice..love ya!!

sorry bin din go swimming with u..was lazy and stressed then..hahaa sounds weird the two adjectives don go together..but its true! nway hope u had a great time swimming! then go eat macs after that summore cos she claimed she exercised a lot oredy..haha! and STOP GOING ON A DIET LA! for who ar!

had a really nice chat wif my binbin last nite..kinda the first time i really stayed up..k not very late actually..but ya..to talk heart-to-heart at a sleepover..cant stand how i feel so comfortable wif ya! really just being myself..not caring that i will tarnish my image or wadsoeva..cos u have already seen all my flaws..but still are my fren! like being lazy and making u go down instead of the host (me) to pick ouou and making you pour your own water and i dunno la! sorry for being so lazy all the time..i will try to improve k!

yay gonna have slpover at ouou's hse next mon! first time! actually in my life i have only stayed over in 3 ppl's hse before..kwa, liow and yk! hahaa ouou will be the fourth! so exciting..then all of us shall play thru the nite! and ouou can play ur newly learnt daidee! hahahaha

and to yunhua..jiayou for ur research! then we can all cycle together next wk..

nway binbin and i were just talking last nite..then we touched on whether we feared death..i was thinking as i grow older, would death become a more imminent event i foresee in my future? would i fear living even more? cos each day draws me closer to my death..but in that way maybe this fear might make me cherish what i have even more..budden perhaps after im older, like bin's mom, i might not fear death that much anymore..cos i'd have felt i've done much in life already..and especially after i have set up my own family and stuff, my greatest aim in life then would be to bring up my children..and i'll be living for them rather than myself..then perhaps i wont have anything much that i really can afford to do or look forward to..so death may not be so scary after all...but i dunno! and hais actually there's no point thinking so much..cos whatever will be will be..

and i lovvee looking for photos at stock xchange! they have realllyy nice photos and its damn addictive to download all the nice scenery photos..i have like around 30 in my comp oredy..hahaa and its v time consuming oso la! but i think photos have this natural ability to transport you psychologically into that place and time and moment..and feel the tranquility and atmosphere present in that scene..and its really thought- and emotion-provoking..trust me..haha!

ok la..think this entry is long and rambly shall stop here and stop slacking! ahh!

oh! on a sidenote, sorry bin! i dowan to do ur tagged me thing! lazy! sorry! haha

haizz i'm boredd! i got things to do but i just don feel like doing anything! i don mind sleeping..but my conscience will just bug me..cos i've been slacking too much oredy..keep telling myself to do my hw..but just cant bring myself to..bleahh

ouou and bin came over ytd..din do much though..i was asleep for half the time..haha paiseh! dunno why i so sleepy leh..sigh..oh and i went swimming wif bin! haven stepped into the pool for ages la..haha..actually i just sat there and stoned la..din really swim..not like hardworking and suddenly weight-conscious bin rite! for who ar! :p

and poor ouou gotta sit there and watch us swim and take care of our stuff..cos she don dare swim! haha..and so funny la..she was trying to PEEP at us bathing! (pervert!) then she was standing on the bench in the toilet waving frantically when this woman walked in from behind..HAHAHA she must have thought ouou was mad or sth la! hahahaha LOSER!

went to aunty pat's hse for steamboat ytd..cos it was her bdae..so nice! i sumhow just enjoy spending time wif my family..i really can just be myself totally..they watched me grow up..they noe how im like..there's no need to do things just to fit the occasion and stuff..they had durian cake for the bdae cake though! i tried a bit..but couldnt stand the strong smell in my mouth..so went home to eat another piece of mango cake instead..haha i strongly recommend to all of u! its really really nice and fragrant! one cake for $20..quite average la the price..but the cake is really good!

still in a funny mood now..been away from home for 12 days..not sure wad i shd be doing now..(hw i noe..buttt) but im glad i don regret going for the expedition at all! even though i thought i might feel quite left out and all cos ouou wasnt going..im really glad i got to noe other ppl better instead..daffy, wanying, jaNASTY and all..cynthia they all..they're all really nice ppl! i guess i kinda distanced myself from them initially..but i realized u just have to open urself up to others if u expect them to do the same for you..should just put down my pride..

nwayyy, i'll be going to cameron highlands tmr! haha my first time! quite excited..though going back to msia again..supposed to be a condo trip..but guess half the people going are all my family members and family frens..really looking forward to tmr..din think i'll be so excited though..but again it really feels good to spend time wif your family..especially when they're all nice and funky people! yayy

since i wont be around on the 10th of December, i wanna wish ouou
A VERY HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!! must remember to smile always k! :D

back from sabah!

haha i really think im becoming a real pig..my parents fetched me home at around 715 from sch today..i came home..unpacked a bit..and slept from 8 to 6 plus! omgg..and its not as if i din slp in sch or sth..quite cool..we all slept in the weights room! got air con..but i slept under the aircon without a sleeping bag and i woke up in the morning freezing! so i went to sit in the toilet at around 6 to stone for like 20 min..to get out of the freezing room..and went back in and changed my sleeping location..hahaa

odac expedition was fun on the whole! not as tough as i expected it to be..it was actually quite relaxed..the only physically demanding parts was the climb up kinabalu..which i felt was less tiring than ophir..maybe cos my group's pace was really damn slack..haha everywhere oso rest one..but lidat then good! not stressful at all..

cip days were nice..really really exposed me to village life..though we had good food and all..and i really couldnt take bathing in icy cold water! it took me lotsa courage to pour the water down my back la! ahhh can still remember the shudders it gave me haha...

we had reflections sessions every night..it was really nice to hear other people's opinions on everything..but i guess the crux of all the discussions was how much we learnt..and oso the large difference between the villagers way of live and our way of life..guess many people were thinking whether its better to lead a simple life like the villagers or a more fastpaced and comfortable life like in singapore..i guess for myself im not sure oso..but i noe for sure i'll be much closer to my family members if i were to grow up in the village..the children run around and play with one another..oblivious to all the danger of the slopes and everything..and everyone seems to noe everyone..and the absence of material distractions like the computer and stuff does give more time to the villagers to spend with their family members..and focus on the more simple essentials of life..and the mountain view is really fantastic..really makes one wanna ponder bout life and everything la..aiya actually there's lotsa stuff i wanna share! but too much to blog i guess..maybe shall write in my diary! haha

we helped to paint the ceiling and planks for the nursery..and the party was really memorable..there was this sudden blackout and some kids broke out wailing! but then we played in the dark and all..really quite memorable la...

mount kinabalu was nice! pity we din catch the sunset on the summit itself..but dunno how much better it would have been anyway..but the view was still nice anyway..so im contented oredy! and the weather was great..so im all the more contented! sunny and bright! so nice and happy rite..

the last few days were really like a holiday! shared a two-bed room wif shuting..got air con summore leh! feel quite bad..cos i always slp till very late..then think she wanted to do other more meaningful stuff than wait for me to wake up..haha went white water rafting! damn damn fun..though i wished the river was a bit more exciting..haha..then had free and easy on the last day..went shopping around the area..bought stuff for ouou, bin, xiaogui, kwa, liow, yk, yunhua and zhixian too! though they're really really small..hope u all wont mind! :) then they (charlene, ngoh, limin, jason, hulin) were walking round the handicraft shop which had totally exorbitant prices la! i got bored..so went outside to sit..and shuting joined me..so we both just sat at the jetty facing the sea and stoned..very nice and relaxing..

ok la quite lazy to write everything down..but enjoyed the trip on the whole..quite surprised i actually din really wanna come back..maybe cos it really felt like a holiday..and who wants vacations to end??

felt strange looking at the computer screen too..been away from all these material comfort that i kinda got used to such a life..wonder if i'll be able to survive forever in a village like kampung kiau...

i missed all of u guys!!! thanks to ouou, yk and yunhua for smsing during the trip!

HAPPY BELATED BIRHTDAY YUNHUA!! AND TO VIPUL TOO! (WHO REMINDED AND FORCED ME TO WISH HIM ON MSN) haha

okie byebye! hope all of u have been enjoying ur hols so far..

haha shit i think ppl have started packing their bags for the expedition oredy..

i was planning only to do it on wed itself! most prob at night summore! issit a little too last minute? haha

i haven really looked at the packlist too! diediedie..

but i'm too lazy to pack so early la! someone help me!!!!!!

haha feeling bored! :p

haha got these from yunhua's blog which she got from yukit's blog...was feeling too free..kimberly's at my hse now! she just bathed and she's watching some michael jackson show on channel 5 now..randomly switched on la..shall go join her after posting!

Your Blog Should Be Purple

You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything. You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey. You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.

What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

oh yucks so untrue! im not girly at all la! seriously..

Your Eyes Should Be Green

Your eyes reflect: Striking attractiveness and danger What's hidden behind your eyes: A vivid inner world

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

haha i sound so dangerous now..

Your Personality Profile

You are funky, outdoorsy, and down to earth. While you may not be a total hippie... You're definitely one of the most free spirited people around. You are very impulsive - every day is a new adventure. However, you do put some thought behind all your actions. Still, you do tend to shock and offend people from time to time!

The World's Shortest Personality Test

haha!!! quite true maybe..think i do offend ppl unknowingly..cos im a little too straightforward i guess..

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF) You are a passionate, caring, and unique person. You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals. You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily. Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings. You seek out other empathetic people to befriend. Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships. In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily. At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career. With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone. As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style. On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

haha! anyhow praise me one! a bit too good to be true..

Your Hair Should Be Orange

Expressive, deep, and one of a kind. You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

yayy had a nice day today..though again i din do much la..

went to watch harry potter in the morning..wif kimberly! i always like being wif her..feel so at home once again..and we can talk bout anything under the sun..cos i noe she wont judge me at all..and its so funny to think how we used to quarrel and fight ALL THE TIME last time everyday..and we'll start complaining to our grandma..but i must say she made up like 80% of my childhood memories..and i really appreciate and am thankful for the way we're genuinely nice to each other now..yupp even though we don meet v often, everytime we meet i really feel very close to her..just like last time..she's really like a sister to me i guess..

then i came home after the movie..ard 230..and i slept till 5 plus! haha until zhixian woke me up wif her call..or yukit..cant remember who spoke first..haha yay class chalet! i've never been to a class chalet before! :p

then i went for pohpoh's godson's wedding dinner..slacked around wif kimberly again..she's really one of the few persons i will bother and want to keep talking to and tell her stuff..not embarrassed bout whether i may be too talkative or lame or wadeva..cos i noe she'll listen too! :) kimmily hope ur head doesnt explode if u read this..hehe..night 'HOSTRESS'!

and harry potter was not bad..i cant believe i actually cried..i don really cry during movies..maybe tears will well up but i don actually cry! but today i dunno why..maybe the part where that cedric died was really quite emotional la..then his father was so heartbroken and all..

haha and kimberly's coming over tmr! so exciting..we're gonna be exercise freaks! we're gonna swim in the morning..then mug (haven done anything for the whole hols yet!) in the afternoon and then use the gym treadmill at night! hehe..and she's staying over..my house gym is really very nice..as in the ambience..there's a tv too..that day i went to run..then after running i just sat there and watched the 9pm show until 10! hahahaha abuse gym property..

sigh my library books are overdue AGAIN..bleahh shd have returned them when i went to westmall the other day..now must pay fine! argh

nway to yk, take care over the next few days k! :)

job shadowing!

haha i dunno wad to say bout it oso..

i did learn some stuff la..like wad a cataract, blind eye, and tooth-in-eye looks like..and it kinda made me feel thankful for having eyes with no illnesses..at least not yet..

the first day i totally dreaded the whole thing..cos the doctor totally din care bout me! i felt damn extra inside la..but the deputy head of the centre i think was much nicer than the doctor i was attached to! at least he bothered at times to let me look thru that eye viewing equipment..and tell me stuff here and there..

second day..my doctor was too busy for me..so i din go..hahaaa and i woke up at 1245! omgg

and today! went into the operating theatre..it was FREEZING! i really wonder how the surgeons' hands dont tremble and become stiff in the cold la! and i had to change into the surgeon's attire! haha..and they made me wear this clogs-like thing..and the sole had all those pokey pokey stuff like those u find in old people's slippers! for massage or sth..and i was standing almost all the time looking at the tv out of respect and my feet nearly died la! so pokey and pain..hahaaa

oh and even when i wore that shower cap thing and the mask, that deputy head dr. donald tan could still recognize me!! haha i could barely recognize him from just his eyes too..

ok better go write my jobshadowing report before i forget wad happened..oh nway i sneaked off..cos i din want to stay any longer!

write more some other time!

why do i still cry whenever i think of you?
but im glad that memories of you are still somewhat fresh in my mind
though i can feel them slowly fading away
together with each passing day since you were gone..

i dont want to forget you, ever
argh i hate wanting so much to just be able to hug you one more time
i miss being able to see you come out to greet me whenever i dropped by

haiss ok shant think anymore
im still glad u were once part of my life..

it's amazing how ppl can change so much within such a short timespan..
people who i'd once thought of as mean and slightly selfish are now graciously, genuinely nice to me..people who i'd once felt were angelic and soft are now aloof and distant..

does the environment we are put in affect our behaviour so much? why do we care so much about how ppl think of us? and the worst sets in when ppl care too much about looking cool..that they tend to forsake and undermine the greater essentials in life, like family relations, character...i dunno..was just wondering..

nway He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother is a really nice song! all of u shd go hear it..haha i forgot how to set it as my background music oredy..

i think we're too young to say we're making the right decisions..cos anyway we're not old enough to see the results of our decisions anyway..hope i don live to regret any of mine..

nway, to ppl who are feeling down, cheer up! it really helps to focus on all the blessings in our lives..we have much more to be thankful than resentful for...

good luck for op everyone! jiayou for I n R too!

wad's the point

what's the point of trying so hard?
you don seem to care at all...
maybe i seem like a superficial and boring person to talk to..
our conversations seem so strained nowadays..
i don feel as close to you anymore..

maybe im not bothering to try at all..
i think im just being oversensitive
but its cos i care a lot bout the friendships i make
i guess u all don see how i can get affected so easily nway
since i always try to look happy and cheerful
that i think i irritate people at times

ok

why bother in the first place

miss you always..

haha haven posted anything since yk did my new template! thankss so much dear! muackss so nice! i love it! u too! :p

hmmm nice day today! though i wasnt especially especially happy as i'd have expected myself to be..was just thinking bout lotsa stuff la..which is not good! cos it makes me moody and detached..

went ecp wif zhixian, yk and shifu! then they cycled so fast! leave slow me like dunno how many hundred metres behind..then they end up having to wait for like 5min (my estimate?? haha) at some spot for me to catch up..paiseh! but its more relaxing cycling at my own slow pace wad..and there's still wind nway..my RECREATIONAL CYCLING!

ohh zhixian had a new haircut! trying to create some windswept look! hahaha

then sat at the beach and took many nice photos! im using one of them as my hp wallpaper.. :)) haha but my phone gallery no space..so only could take small portrait-sized ones! hahaa

and yk had this pain-looking cut on her feet! ouchhh and when the uncle poured the alcohol for her she din even feel any pain at all la! mad one..but BRAVE YUKIT! :D haha

ate at parkway parade..haisss reminded me of how i used to go there every friday..wif mummy and kimberly..then i would always hold her left hand, the one wif the bracelet..and kimberly would hold her right..hehe..then we'll eat at macs..i'll always order the 6 nuggets meal..and kimberly would order her cheeseburger..and i'll nv fail to give her 2 nuggets each time..cos i cant finish..and cos she likes the fries to be soft and limp..then i would deliberately squeeze and press the fries to soften them for her! haha i noe it sounds gross..but it was cousinly bonding btw us! and sometimes mummy would let us go ride the mini-motorcycles before daddy came to pick us...ahhh shit i really really miss those times man..shit la...ahhh its making me very sad! i dunno why too..

nway sorry all of u for eating so slowly today! u all kept talking to me that's why! :p hahahaha it was nice walking around giant too..wif u ah mas! and one 32 yr ah gong! heh

spot is so cute..so adorable..and buddy is damn friendly and loveable!
shit i miss laddie so so so much..it was so painful looking at his photos ytd..and i just couldnt accept how the once furry laddieboy could fit into one small, cold, hard urn..haiz..and the kueh balu really made me cry..102nd day today...i'll miss you always boyboy..

pieces of driftwood

for no reason at all we're drifting apart

maybe u don enjoy my company anymore

but i don think i've done anything wrong

so maybe im being oversensitive after all

there's no point getting affected by such stuff

but then again im an easily affected person

guess i'll have to be more hardened and cold

and face all this with a stronger and braver heart

i cant stand insensitive people

november's chopin!

I AM HERE!
HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
haha
cheering up yr blog!
wheeee
haha okie i'm achaly v sleepy
shall not type rubbish anymore
bye!

nice nice day..

whee i noe this is a little early..but HAPPY BIRTHDAY ENGHUI!!!! had such a nice time today..we din do much but i prefer this kinda outings! simple and meaningful..haha

and i've decided..im never gonna take a card neoprint again! it was my first time today and its such a traumatising experience! yuckks...hahaa all of u got tricked by the stupid offer! :p

and we shall go carolling during christmas!!!! hahahahah! oh my..it was so funny la..hearing the 3 of u trying ur best to sing while i bang on the piano..the funny part is how all of u were really singing properly but at the same time in that kind of funny, forced voice..haha damn fun la! it was so like the christmas season oredy...hahaaa next time must sing more!! yayyyy

and xiaogui's mum is sooo nice! (xiaogui if u read this ask ur mummy to read too! :p) thanks auntie!! hahaa don worry i'll marry u! hahaaa tyz can have oeh's bro..

such a happy day today..if only i could go back to ny..

haha flightplan is nice! and scary! haha more or exciting la..at least to me...stupid yk and tyz stop acting brave lor..i know u two were scared too! hahaa...but i like thrillers! they're the only kind of movie that's worth the money to watch them in the cinema..haha

nway shit i dunno why im getting sleepy so easily nowadays..it seems as though the more i sleep the sleepier i get..i keep dragging the odac handbook every nite cos i keep giving myself the excuse that im too sleepy to think! so i MUST do it by tonite and stop procrastinating! but its already nearly 1..haha shd i? but i'm sure i'll be too sleepy tmr..after odac pt and all..and think binbin's coming to stay over too..haha..so cant do tmr..

haha think my arms look flabby and white..yucks! like an obese chicken..sumhow being white makes one look fatter..haha..to yk, zhixian, zit and whoever who always tries to roll up my sleeves for me, i don roll them up cos i wanna cover up my flabby arms! :p hahahaaaaa

nway i hate awkward situations

and sorry im not very good at pacifying ppl especially if i don see a reason for them to get pissed at all..i don bother trying cos i'll seem damn fake..and it'll be hypocritical..so im sorry if i seem like i don bother at times..

shitshitshit im getting sleepy again! howhow!
ahh i'm gonna get elephant thighs after tmr... haha

and why u do seem different nowadays?
and do you even care?

nobody understands me..

sorry bout everything..it was so stupid of me to get upset over inconsequential stuff..i must learn to focus on the more beautiful essentials of life..

haha though i told myself not to think bout life oredy i still cant help it! nway, zhixian made me think..which is more important? to make sure u're happy just before u die by knowing that u have lead a life with as little regrets as possible, where most of ur life is dedicated to giving to others and forming meaningful relationships, and where material desires are less important..or to lead a comfortable, luxurious but materialistic life (where you are happy because of ur wealth), but come to regret such a focus in life during your dying days because you realize that your friends and family are actually the most important..yup so the question is whether it is more essential to feel good just before you die or feel good throughout ur life..hmmm if i analyse it this way it seems as though material wealth can give more happiness..but then again material wealth can only give happiness to some..i'm still glad i place more importance on relationships instead..

and yess! steamboat today was sooo nice...another memorable outing wif u guys.. :)))
though wasnt really worth my 10 bucks..but still i enjoyed myself! haha..just so nice to sit like that and eat la..so simple but fulfilling..and liow! hope you liked our presents! hehe..

ahh getting sleepy..though i really don understand why..din do much today..and i woke up at 11! hahaha slacked thru open hse..there really wasnt much for me to do anyway..and i slept again at tyz's hse! hahaha i think i tend to get sleepier when i slp more at nite! so maybe i shd slp less haha...and shit la..gotta wake up damn early tmr! ahhhh my nice sleep...

i think i should just keep stuff to myself from now on..

unless its a friendship problem, nothing else's worth talking about..and complaining bout stuff is just too whiny and tiring

i should just be a listener..there's no point talking bout my life or about life in general..the latter's too tiring and complex too..and there's never really an answer an anyway..

i shouldnt think too much bout life too i guess..it just confuses me..i should just try hard to think of only the happy stuff..and make it a habit to be in a good mood all the time..then i can make myself and others happy too! what for spoil others' moods with my own horrible mood..that's so selfish..

i should learn to be more easily contented..and count all the little blessings in my life..

i shouldnt get irritated or angry easily..its really tiring..even if i do, i shouldnt whine bout it as well..it doesnt really help matters..i must either forget about it or do something to change things..

now i dunno if tuesdays wif morrie was good for me after all..i guess i havent really settled on a fixed set of principles on the way i wanna lead my life..so i've been reading such stuff to teach me how..but sometimes they just confuse me cos i already have some idea how i wanna live..haiyahaiya...wadeva la..

i realized im far too pessimistic..things always turn out better than i expected..so i always worry for nothing! haiss

NWAY, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MY DARLING LIOWLIOW!!!! may all ur wishes come true! stay happy always k! :D so looking forward to dinner on friday! :)))

i should just be thankful for everything, really
ok why do i seem like im trying to convince myself now! argh

haha i think my astigmatism is getting worse! sometimes the computer screen seems so bright it gets blur for a while..and then i'll rub my eyes and things will somehow seem clearer..haha sounds stupid rite..like it'll actually help..ya but i dont wanna wear specs! so ma fan..but i'll look intellectual of cos.. :p hope i nv ever have to wear specs..ok maybe i have to in future when i get old-flower-eye.. :p

haha i feel like a pig! i slp whenever there's a bed available! went to tyz's hse and i slept for 2 plus hrs! haha and i was still trying to convince her i was just lying down and wont fall aslp! but in the end...haha sorry la..promos over oredy so must let myself slp all i want!

haha had a nice dinner wif 3 of u!

tuesdays with morrie taught me to detach myself from negative feelings..by allowing ourselves to immerse fully in that emotion we can then tell ourselves not to think in any way that would evoke that emotion cos we dont want to experience that emotion again..haha not sure if i intepreted it correctly..hmmm quite abstract la..still trying to understand how to do it..

but nway the book is really q insightful..i like this kinda books! :))) i really learnt many many things..and it really made me reflect..how i actually treat and treasure the people around me..that when im toking to this person, there may or actually will be other stuff on my mind, that i wont be able to focus my thought totally on the person im toking to (like wad morrie is doing essentially in the book)..ok and a lot of other stuff la...all of u shd go read the book! :) but i guess i still face the fear of dying..to me there's no way i can lead my life without regrets..but i wanna make sure that when i die, i would have lived a very contented life! oh nway he said ur life will only be meaningful and fulfilling if u learn how to give to others..cos only then u'll feel that wad you're doing has meaning and purpose, not like your everyday, monotonous job..

morrie oso said 'when you learn how to die, you learn how to live' haha sounds meaningful but i really cant understand wad it means..how will i ever learn how to die!

but to me its still quite impossible to live everyday as if it were the last..cos everything about the way i thought and behaved would be different..if i knew i were about to die, i would make sure i let everyone i love know how much i love them, to say my goodbyes properly..and spend every second of my life remaining doing stuff that i always wanted to do..which is not possible cos i cant possibly spend all my time doing such stuff! we still have to be practical ultimately..if i could do anything i wanted, and not do anything i dislike, i wont study at all! but if i don study, i cant get a job next time, and i wont be able to support myself, and i'll die of hunger eventually..haha so i still have to lead my life the way im expected to..sigh

haha i hate paint fumes!

haiss just wanna say sorry k..i seriously think i have a big problem..such stupid things always happen..argh..

if only everything could be like how it was last time..

i seriously seriously hate changes

why are we never contented? the more we have the more we want..such a stupid way of living..

i have so much time now that im feeling bored...so im just wasting my nice slacking time away..haiz..there are so many things to do...i just don feel like doing any of them..haha must get out of my comfort zone like wad yk told me! her stupid brainwashing workshop..

since being happy, sad, angry, scared and so on are all just emotions, wad's wrong wif being sad or angry? its just another emotion after all..why is being happy good? why can people affect one another so easily? we're just all people..ok i dunno wad im saying oso..nvm...

i just feel lost and detached and all..

it was really nice toking to u binnie! thanks! :)

wheee haha oops think i made yukit sound evil or sth in the previous entry...i shall take that back! haha..i feel so bad..i stole a toothbrush from yk's hse! haha actually she gave it to me..cos i forgot to bring mine! no actually i din really plan to slpover..i just brought one set of clothes in case we were going arcade or sth after exams..but in the end i just went over! din feel like going home and seeing the piles of notes on my bed which just accumulated over the week..haha and i ended up like lying on one small corner of my bed only..bleah..yesyes so it was v fun! we din do much but a simple life is really much nicer and enjoyable than a complicated but luxurious one..

chapteh is fun! and zhixian bought a new bimbotic purple chapteh from the bookshop..which gave lousy yk and cheesian bruises near their ankle..haha so lousy lor! only i kick then not pain..u all have weak, hollow bones! must drink more milk like me! haha..and messy yk realized she actually has a chapteh AT HOME!! ahh..hiding in her messy drawer..as usual..haha an even more bimbotic one! HOT PINK! damn funny la..and christine's a natural! she v good lor..first time kick then bai fa bai zhong le..

and corpse bride v funny! couldnt stop laughing even after the movie..all the puns..ok shant say them hear in case i spoil it for ppl who haven watched..but damn short la the movie..so quite waste money..and damn funny..i msged bin to tell her i was watching corpse bride..then i was in the cinema so was trying to hide my phone cos it was v bright..so i din see wad i was typing and she replied..huh! corpse brief?! hahaa ok nvmm not funny..but i found it funny still..

went back to sch after the movie..sounds so sao xing rite..haha cos we din noe where to go..and we wanted to play cards and chapteh! so we played and played til 7 plus..ahh so shuang lor..no restrictions or anything..and then i decided to go to yk's hse in the end..and luckily my mummy din say no! haha..think im rather lucky la..my parents are not that protective over me..given that im the only child..

and ya..so took the mrt all the way to tampines! felt so at home around that area..walked wif yk around tampines mall..SHOPPED! ok a little only la..haha so surprising rite..but it really felt v relaxing to walk around TM..like so long nv go back oredy..then went back to her hse! lazy us took the shuttle bus..haha..and i realized yk stays damn near my grandma's hse! haha...

so we played the comp for the whole nite..damn fun..played arcane at first..but gave up cos we couldnt solve it..then we played get medieval..haha q a stupid game though..just go around killing spiders, bats and lizards..which can attack you..but very gross..after u kill them their blood will be splattered all over the floor..haha then we got bored of the game cos it kept going on and on..and i think yk killed like 70% of the enemy..i always cannot aim one..haha!

then we did jigsaw puzzle! and my eyes were closing oredy..but efficient and lihai me fitted the pieces together at like 600% of yk's rate! :p

and we slept...all the way till 1230! woke up a few times in between but fell back aslp..haha..played a bit of piano, ate lunch..then went downstairs to play chapteh and badminton! so fun! though the wind was q strong..but still v nice..sunny and everything..then got nice space beside the swimming pool and palm trees..we were supposed to go ecp one..but too lazy to go in the end..and cheesian wanted to stay at home and be a couch potato! n it was the first time i toked to cheesian lidat over the phone! haha...

yeah then we went online..to search for pics for my blog template..yk's gonna help me change! this was supposed to be a temporary template anyway..haha..then went for dinner wif kwa, liow, ouou, xiaogui, bin, ngoh and charmaine..ate at bk cos everywhere else was so crowded..but v nice to just sit there and tok too..must organise 4/9 outing! :))

promos over le! but dowanna tok bout it..and there's pw..idiot..yk said its on fri! shit la..dowanna ask the rest bout it too..cos like v saoxing..argh idiot idiot idiot! nvm shant spoil my nice mood...

went to look for a male lovebird for rainbow today! haha budden the stupid petshop owner cant tell if the bird's a female or male..say must take the blood for dna test..so ma fan la! anyway stupid owner..she scolded me! for playing wif one of the dogs there..through the glass summore la..she was like 'excuse me..dont do that'.. in that kind of irritating teacher that tone..then my daddy was beside me..then he oso v bu shuang..so he asked me to leave the shop too..but im happy that my parents are so defensive over me! haha but that's cos i really din do anything wrong wad..but we din get a bird in the end..cos we din noe which were the male ones..and there were only 4 of them..and they were in pairs! so evil to break them up..and all of them were so scared of us la..we go near only they fly away..not like rainbow! so naughty! only know how to bite..

ahhh wad shall i do..starting to feel sian..there's nth that i really really wanna do leh..before exams i would like want to watch tv all the time..or just sit on the sofa in the morning and watch all the cartoons i want..it feels really nice to watch those cartoons..cos they're all so simple and easy to understand..n q cute too! but now i oso don really feel like doing those leh..haizz got books to read but lazy to read oso..nvm shall go waste my time away! haha slacking is nice oso..

ok la..shant write so much oredy..think it sounds v boring too..okie bye!

yayy finally!

haha at yukit's hse now! its 145am and im damn sleepy but she doesnt want to let me sleep! :p

haha so so so so happy can finally go play all i want! going ecp tmr!
ok goodnite! yk's on the bed now im so scared she'll fall aslp and leave me alone and awake in her house!

haha i noe i shd seriously start mugging for promos oredy..yk stressed me out! wad 5 days per subject excluding GP...haha

but was just feeling sian so i came here! :p

studied in sch today..so proud of myself! FINALLY got down to doing my transport in mammals tutorial..haha..n a bit of maths! err pw was a little sao xing la..but shant dwell on it anymore..but thanks zhixian, dawn n yukit!! really enjoyed playing chapteh wif u all! :)))) hehe i so li hai rite! :P but was damn hot la my blouse so thick..next time must play more k! and soo sorry for hitting the shuttlecock to the ledge.. :s thanks dawn if u're helping me replace one..haha

nway..was just thinking again..and i still feel i have found the best friends from sec sch..its like even when we have all gone to different schs..u all still seem to understand me the best..and accept me for who i am totally..haha i guess not many can do that..bleah think i appear v childish to a lot of ppl..but who cares la..i think if i show my serious side i'll be quite scary and i dowanna put ppl off! so why be serious??? haha okk nvm...

i guess i just have very high expectations of my friends..to me the perfect fren shd be one who will be willing to go out of the way to help her fren..without expecting anything in return..but just does it out of her own goodness and its based on the friendship we have..and not be calculative..
a perfect fren must be willing to listen to what i wanna say..without any impatience..she doesnt have to give any advice..but she has to be able to put herself in my shoes and empathize wif me..
i shd be able to seek assurance in my true friend in times of trouble and know that friend will never leave me alone to decide on the big things in my life..or small ones for that matter..i dunno..i just want a friend who's always there..

but i'm glad i have a few..and a few is enough for life..u all noe who u are..i don mind not making anymore friends..cos im thankful for the wonderful few i have already..and its so difficult to find more ppl like them..haha or maybe its just a preconditioned mindset that i wont be able to..from experience or wad i dunno la..i just feel good listeners are hard to find..as in one who would patiently and willingly listen to wad i have to say..and not just listen for the sake of showing me a little respect or sth..

and i still wanna be enlightened on how i shd go about cherishing the ppl and things around me..i still seem to take many things for granted..and i noe thinking bout cherishing alone wont help in letting the ppl i cherish know that i cherish them..haiya..someone enlighten me! i've come to find it awkward to say i love you to my parents..though i still will if i haven seen them for days and we talk on the phone or sth..haha..but then again, won't these words lose their meaning if i say them too often? but if i do mean it its another thing rite..

i just want everything around me to stay the way it is..

i love rainbow!! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KWA!!! :))))

haha happy birthday kwa!
thanks for the dinner just now..all of us enjoyed it..it felt really nice and homely to have dinner..just the 6 of us again..with whom i feel most comfortable and unrestrained wif..i really just have to be myself..hope u like our presents too! may all ur wishes come true.. :) really glad u like the bag!!!

hmmm i dont really know what to say...why are we back to this problem again?
just like it takes two hands to clap, it needs two mutual souls for a friendship to work too..
maybe both of us are not trying hard enough..
but is a friendship a friendship if we have to try so hard in the first place?
its not about how often we meet up or how often we talk
its about making the effort to meet up just when you're free, that makes the feeling so magical
i know you dont want to feel detached too..i've thought about all this before..about not bothering to meet up and share about my life..cos i was lazy to explain everything from the beginning all over again..
maybe your priorities in life have changed, whether you want it or not..
some things matter more to you now, and other things less..
of course its the same for me..nothing ever stays the same i guess
(haha the last two sentences rhymed! i can go be a poet liao)

nway, nothing in this post is offensive or meant in any malice k..maybe u wont like me to say i still treat you as my best friend..maybe u feel such words shdnt be said out loud..(maybe that applies more to love??) i dont know..but i feel having true friends is being able to take comfort in sharing your problems and happiness with that person..and seek assurance should you feel you have somewhat lost your direction in life and need somebody to rely on...

ok that's out of point..but i'm just trying to say thinking that you think about friendship isnt going to help matters..its putting such negative thoughts aside and trying in action to improves things that's gonna make the difference..

taking things more light-heartedly would really help too..trust me..the deeper you go into such stuff the worse u're gonna feel..and it kinda blinds you from other possible positive thoughts..cos you have become so fixed in such thoughts..

don take it upon urself too..its also my fault..i admit i don't share much with you nowadays..i also find it difficult to find the opportunity too..and maybe u dont know, i was unusually quiet that day not cos i had nothing to say to u..i had nothing to say even when the rest arrived..i had other stuff on mind..tell ya soon..after ur maths test i guess...

i dont know if it'll be good if we 3 sit down and talk this out..or will it be better if we just pretended nothing happened? cos if we talk it out, it may get awkward after that, and any efforts spent on maintaining the friendship may seem forced and fake..

i still feel it should be natural...and meeting up once in a while really is sweet esp if we hardly see each other..sumhow u'll just feel happy..okok nway i'm really not angry..not much reason to be too..so don worry k...ya still wanna say, best friends for life darling..

4/9 gathering!!

so happy...went back to ny for teachers' day yesterday..saw lotsa lotsa teachers, and lotsa lotsa friends too! it really felt damn nice la...like there were so many ppl around to wave to, to say hello..the feeling of being reunited once again..

haha i noe this sounds insincere, but before i reached ny i stopped by coro to get sth for ms ng..got this very cute teddy bear and a card..haha..i only gave her k! :p i dunno..not that she's my favourite teacher but i guess im just most grateful to her..she has really taught me a lot la..n i have really gained a lot from guiding too..ya so...after i got off the bus at tchs bus stop, i was trying to pia the card! then bamboo, kwa and yumiao came along! leefang, yiling and kailing but they left first..then in the end the whole grp was waiting for me to finish my card..haha feel so bad..

ya as expected, the sch was damn crowded..esp the staff rooms...full of ex-ny ppl..actually saw many j1s..hardly any j2s..hmmm will we all still come back next yr? i tot like its a matter-of-fact thing..but j2s are having prelims now rite..haiya next yr then see la..but will seem so ungrateful lidat..

ok and potato chan was damn funny! cos i walked away first..then he was asking kwa if she got bf not.. :P then told her some funny advice la..cant really rem exactly..but like must faster look out for the good guys now..cos after jc all the good guys snapped up oredy..(haha!) then if u find u really like, must keep ORBITING around him! haha i was damn amused at this! plus he teaches physics summore..wahahaha

n mr khoo forgot my name! kwa's too..sigh..he said he was getting old..he looked at me and said, "i know u're tan" haha!...he remembers me by my surname! but at least he din forget me la...

saw many many other teachers...ms ng, mrs chua (she still remembers kwa and me la!), adrian chan, mrs seah, lss, ms sia..but sadly couldnt find anna fu and wu lao shi.... :(

then we all went for lunch! a lot of us leh! was very happy..in ny we oso nv go out as such a big grp one..19 of us!! went to orchard..haha though at first i dowan go orchard cos i don like orchard! :p went to eat the crystal jade lamian..each of us ate one bowl..no choice had to eat there if we wanted to eat as a grp..and it was cheaper than that ajisen restaurant they were saying..haha...it was really very cosy..all 19 of us squeezed together at one long table..by joining many small tables and chairs together..

ahhh i dunno how come i eat so slowly! i was the first to get my food..and everyone was looking at me with envy!!! wahahaha...but i was the last to finish too! argh dunno why! then everyone was waiting for me to finish too..haha..they distract me la! tok so much..very nice..toked and toked..so nice to meet up wif everyone again..then stupid kitty took a video of me wif her hp (without telling me!), trying to shoot my horrible eating skills as i tried to tear open my pork! haha okok i shall try to have more eating ettiquette...

i guess the greatest thing bout eating wif my ny frens is that i can TOTALLY be myself again..cos i noe they'll accept me for who i am..wadeva nonsense i do..they'll have seen it before..and they accept me for that too...

then walked around..walked to cine..saw zit! haha..then went to the food court to sit down..and i fell aslp! haha....then we went home...and piggy me fell aslp till dinner time! and slept not long after having dinner too... :s

nway to u, hope u're feeling better..there's really no point thinking bout such stuff..and there's nth to think about in the first place! trust me..nway true friends look at ur heart first..and that's enough oredy rite..

ok la woke up so late this morning! shall go have my breakfast first! stomach growling le!

wah biang i feel like a pig now...came back home around 4 plus..read papers then slept from 5 plus to 10 la! think tonite doneed slp again la..was supposed to do my tutorials! cos im seriously lagging in ALL subjects..ok i shall do it later..do evolution! :p

nway felt v bad this afternoon..i was at the bus stop near kap..then this 50plus old lady approached me..wanted to sell pens to me la..think 4 for $2 or sth..she said was sick and all..haha though i was slightly sceptical bout that la..but i thought $2 is just the amount i spend everyday on lunch..must why just use it to zuo shan shi..and i can use the pens oso wad..so i reached into my pocket..and remembered i forgot to bring my wallet! so i was like stuttering 'eh...i forgot to bring my wallet leh'..though i don think she really heard wad i said la..but it felt totally like i was trying to give the worst excuse in the whole world! like who would not bring their wallets out...ok maybe blur ppl like me la..but it really sounded like a damn bad and selfish excse..

and thanks yukit for that walk out..it really meant a lot to me! haha hope i don fall into that 'slippery slope' problem..haha did i use it correctly?

and to you, i still care bout our friendship..don let ur imagination run wild k! :P

i miss you

i guess im starting to get over it slowly..its not really on my mind anymore

but sometimes the memories just flood my mind again and there's nth i can do

i still miss you as much..

i miss the sound of you barking, whining, and cowering at the presence of strangers
i miss you jumping onto my thighs, of playing hide-and-seek with you, and your warm, sincere licks
i miss the fat, adorable you

i dont ever remember you biting anyone before
i miss stroking you as you were eating
i miss sitting just beside you
i miss hugging you

most of all, i miss that sincere, harmless and loving look in your eyes
you're the best friend i've ever had..

we all miss you so so much..you'll always be a part of my life..

byebye..

rest in peace boyboy..
we will miss you always..

i dunno how long it'll take for me to get over this..
laddie i miss you so so so so so much..how i wish i could just hug you one more time..i would nv forget ur last lick in the pet hospital..u looked just like a puppy...so young and adorable..you'll stay in our memories forever..rite kimberly..guess only you can share my pain..

i miss you. and all the times we played together. and that innocent, harmless look in your eyes..

haiss just feeling damn sad

i will miss you always..

just wanna say a very very very extremely big thank you to all of you who were concerned...feel v lucky to have such frens like u guys!! really..3M is a really sweet class i realized...thanks so much dearss..esp ouou,cheesian, xiaohua, yk, jorina, mavis..and anyi n david..u two are really really really sweeett!!! *huggss* sorry for scaring all of u today..haiss guess i cant really handle my emotions well..though i've tried to maintain this hardened image for so long..dunno why too..

haiss im trying so damn hard not to think bout it..with other ppl around i can easily push the thought out of my head. cos i don wanna cry in front of everyone..feel damn malu bout wad happened today..hais..but its terrible when im alone..i dunno wad to think at all!

i guess only time can wash away all the pain..
i will miss you always..

another weird dream

haha i seem to have dreams every night..but now my dreams are slightly different la..at least i'm not exactly being chased..then hafta keep running away..then sometimes will make myself fly to escape..haha but then very difficult to keep myself high above the ground..i'll just keep getting lower and lower..then i'll be so scared the bad ppl underneath me will grab hold of my legs! ahhh..but it reminds me of rainbow! haha..she fly then will get lower and lower one..lousy bird..

ya so nway..i dreamt i had 18 ear holes on each ear! and it din look weird at all lor..like 3 rows of 6 holes on each ear..haha i dreamt i had sooo many studs on both ears! n all the studs were only on the lobes..i dunno..my ear lobe din seem so huge in my dream leh..dunno how it fitted 18 studs..all spaced out summore!!

ok la..watched zhenqing again..damn nice! though xiaoan so irritating! but nway listening to the theme song is damn nostalgic..reminds me of how i used to watch zhenqing EVERYDAY! like sun and mon it would be 2 hrs..then even during exam period i would still watch la..and i was damn sad cos guides camp made me miss the last episode!!! arghhh or was it some holiday?? but i asked kimberly to help me record haha.. i miss chuang shi ji too..the song oso v v nice..nakes me miss auntie warsi..used to watch all the scv shows with her till late at nite..then in pri sch i would stay at pohpoh's hse during the hols..then we'll both sit there and watch the retelecast of the channel 55 shows..ahhhhh..i wanna go back to the past...

haiss

my resolution

haha i haven bathed yet and im back!

decided i needed some direction and goal in life...

shall NOT pon bio lectures anymore..no matter how cold the LT is, whether there are seats left for me or whether the notes are nice to read or not..

shall try to understand stuff taught during the lecture itself and stop giving myself the excuse that i'll just go home and read them..so i can just copy the answers down blindly

can only come online from 1030 onwards..so i shall do work before i come online..(i realized i only do hw during the weekends! shitt)

shall be guai and do hw everyday from 8 to 1015, then bathe at a fixed time from 1015-1030 and not some funny time like 12 plus everydayy (dowan get rheumatism when im old! though i think i'll get it oredyy)

read the newspapers everyday!

do my tys if im free (though i'll nv be according to myself)


basically, just be guai! though i think im guai oredy! haha im not ego k...

hmmm haven blogged in a while..cos nth much to blog about i guess..life has been quite the same..as it always has been..

slept a lot today! woke up at 9 actually..then switched off the aircon and drew the blinds..and went back to slp! haha til 10 30..in my stuffy room with no fan on and all the doors and windows closed..under the blanket too..bleahh..and then i ate breakfast and watched tv till 12 plus..then went onto my bed..was writing my diary halfway when i fell aslp! haha...till 3 plus sighh..n so weird! i had this weird weird dream..which i din really feel was a dream actually..then perhaps cos it was raining outside it was darker and i subconsciously thought it was nighttime oredy..in my dream..haha..many weird weird things la..like i dreamt i was watching the last epi of zhen qing, which was supposed to be my 2nd time in my dream..so i could like predict what would happen next in the show..when in actualy fact the whole last episode was just created by me la! and sumhow i went inside the show haha..then i dreamt i was in some RJ odac bus coming back or going to malaysia..then passed by HC odac bus! haha and saw liow inside..then our bus went on some flyover..so we were higher..then liow spotted me at the back of my bus and scubadived up!! like sumhow we were in water! haha..and there were bubbles and all as she swam up..then like a ghost, she just passed through the bus and got into my bus! haha so weird la...ok so after i woke up it took me some time to realize it was a dream and that it was only 3 plus haha

but i watched the REAL zhenqing after that! haha and it was not the last episodee

went to westmall again on fri..its become a weekly thing! which is good la..and my parents say we're boring ppl! hehe..i dont like changes anyway..

nway lost one side of my earring in sch..and traced my path all over rj to find it..and thankss soo much cheesian! really touched u were willing to walk all over the sch to help me look for it too!! *huggzzz* sigh din find it in e end..haha so changed all to sticks and one earring which looks like a magnet! haha can go around bluffing ppl.. :P and to yk! 2 sticks is better! cos they don drop out that easily..everytime i bathe and wipe my hair, those one stick one always drop out one lorr..and 2 sticks not that thick actually..u shd go try! haha

haisss been telling myself must work harder after getting back cts results!! but i seem more slack!! argh..no motivation to do tutorials at all..but must be guai!! and the worst thing is my parents don give me any pressure at all! i need some scolding! haha..but not bad la..after slacking and sleeping for the whole afternoon, i did my bio tutorial..but din noe how to do quite a bit of the explaining qns..and of cos i left out the essay qns.. :P but that's enough work for me for the weekend! haha cannot..must be more hardworking.. shall aim to do circular motion by tmr..and vectors!! dunno la..think i'd have felt accomplished enough after circular motion..oh ya! got bio test too!! shit but i dunno when it is lehh

n daddy has gout! sobb...luckily its nothing serious la..just went to google it..one of the few times he has admitted sth's painful..(he tries to ach macho for the rest of the times haha) ya! but in a way its a blessing in disguise..deter him from all his unhealthy diet..and BEER especially! been telling him not to drink so much for sooo long! haha n today he asked me to pour a biggg cup of water for him! haha yayy no more beer for him!! :)

been feeling quite sian these few days..like the feeling comes and goes..and usually disappears by the next morning..i don usually feel sian at the start of the day la..but feeling sian is really horrible! cos i don feel like doing anything..so the only thing i can do is to continue feeling sian..sighh and promos cant motivate me to study too! :s sumhow don feel like staying back in sch to study too..used to stay back and do hw in e lib one..but don really noe wad i do after sch nowadays too..

oh! and must report my achievement! haha i ran 4.8km on weddd!! ahhhh tot i would die during the run la...but it was much better than i thought..haha nv ran so much in my life at one go before laaa..but then again..i think im still one of the lousiest in odac.. haha

ok la..this is quite a crappy post i realized..all the stupid things in my life..nth deep or reflective at all..but nvm la..everyone says im full of shit nway..

okie shall go bathe soon!! getting late le..

friday was a nice dayy!! 4/9 gathering..and sheila came along too! but before most of the rest came la..liow and lala came to rj earlier ard 2..n lala was supposed to come as a surprise! haha..so we just sat in the canteen n toked and stoned..until 530..walked over to S11..all of us bought from qiulian ban mian!! haha so funny lor..like advertising for them lidat..i bought my fav meehoonkuey..then like 10 of us squeezed at that mini table..cant even put our arms on the table to eat..haha...there was kwa, liow, bin, xiaogui, tyz, yuna, charlchua, yiyou (so long nv see her le!), ngoh, lala and me! so funn..then we went to take neoprint..since there were so many of us..i haven taken one since ages i think..ya but it was really really nice to just sit down for dinner lidat la..felt so at home all over again..

then later the rest left..then yiyou,bin, xiaogui, ouou and me din feel like going home yet..so we went to mcdonalds to stone!hehe..but i was too full to buy even an icecream..haha..then we all went home! all of us took 156 except ouou..so nice lorr miss taking bus home wif all of them..

oh! n i had this gross dream..maybe ive been thinking bout the blood donation thing too much le..i dreamt i went for it! then this man inserted the needle when i was in some lab..dunno la..my dreams are always incoherent..then the bag to collect my blood was not sealed on top one la..then the man in charge was supposed to monitor when the blood reached the max level..but he din!so my bag was overflowing..n sumhow my blood was accumulating at a dunno wad lightning speed..so to stop the blood flow i just yanked the needle out by myself..haha..but of cos in dreams its not v pain la..i dunno if the dream made me more or less scared for the actual donation..but i guess a bit of pain wont hurt la..its the closest i can get to helping to save lives! hehe..:) though im still a little scared i think..but they said the whole thing's quite short izzit..dunno la..

ok shall stop slacking..v stressed for pw..but dowanna think bout it anymore! but there's so point avoiding it..argh..nvm

finally watched a movie! :)

haha after like dunno how many 1593930405 days, i finally watched another movie la! last one was e incredibles i think..ya i noe im swaku..n i watched the war of the worlds! i like to watch thrillers..though i get scared sometimes..but i find only thrillers are worth the money if u wanna watch a movie in the cinema..

so nway, its quite a good show la..i was like scared throughout the show la..cos they kept running away from those aliens ma..then v xin jin dan tiao one..its the effects la..though the plot is really simple..hmmm now i think of it i dunno wad was scary too..maybe its just exciting i guess...

n there was e nkf show today..i always don find the perfomances meaningful..only those short clips bout real life stories are effective..and really really sadddd...i think most ppl who saw the story bout the 2 children wif cancer would have felt a strong urge to cry..really v ke lian la..it really makes me think how much we ask for in our lives..when we shd already be more than contented to lead lives as healthy beings..for ppl like them they'll be happy wif every day longer they live..why cant life just be as simple?

if i had a choice, i'd rather not study, and be brought up at some kelong or sth..and go to fish everyday wif my parents who would be fishermen..haha..then so carefree and simple..

studying is so tiring..and i seriously don understand why we have to study for so many years..sigh

i miss ny!!

sigh...listening to kevin kern's song..brings such an intense feeling of nostalgia..
songs i listen to always remind me of different periods of my life, cos once i listen to this song or cd i like, i will put it on repeat mode for a few days or weeks..then if i listen to that particular song again i will remember during wad period i listened to it in the past..and during ny's reading period every morning, they used to play nice nice music over the pa system..and i learned that those were kevin kern's songs..not that i really noe who he is la..but haiya, i listen to those songs i just really feel damn sad la..makes me miss ny sooo much..even though i din really use reading period to read books..haha i'll either be slacking, toking to my frens or mugging for some test on that day..sighhh i just miss EVERYTHING bout ny..its the bestest bestest sch i've ever been to..

everything's just not the same anymore.

random thoughts..

if a fire broke out in my house and i had some time to take what i wanted to..these are wad i would take..

1. all my photo albums...cos i guess that's where most memories are stored..and think all the negatives are gone..
2. my autograph books
3. my diaries
4. my cards & letters from my family and friends...
5. handmade presents
6. my certs! need them for getting a job i guess
7. im not so sure bout my handphone..cos i wanna keep the msges..the hp itself is not impt..

hmmm ya..think these are wad i'll take wif me to escape!

and also..if i had to lose one of my 5 senses, which one would i bear to lose? this one i really cannot decide leh..i always thought sight is the most impt one..cos being able to see the beautiful scenery and creations of this world is really a great blessing...budden all the other senses are equally impt..maybe i would choose to lose my sense of smell! budden i'll lose my sense of taste at the same time! hmmm..then if i lose my sense of touch, it'll be dangerous cos i cant feel pain or anything...then hearing! to me its not that impt too..but i wanna hear my family and friends talking too.. so i should be thankful i'm born perfectly healthy..we really should start appreciating all these little blessings in life..though we tend to overlook them most of the time..and look for other unnecessary troubles to worry about.. like stress from sch etc..and be contented wif our lives! :))

went to ouou's hse today...but ended up playing more than i did work! then we went to kfc to eat..then went outside there to sit..those kind of places i can imagine those naughty kids loiter around..then 4 of us just sat there and toked..so nice and relaxing..though stupid xiaogui looked so stressed that she wasted another day! :p

oh another thing! i let rainbow fly around in my toilet today! though she was damn damn terrified..so stupid lor she..i took the kitchen glove to touch her..cos i scared she bite me..then she tried to retreat when it came near, but biting it at the same time..haha then she flew around my toilet! so cute lor she..and i had a HARD time trying to get her back into the cage la! but she so cuteee..she hesitated quite a while before stepping out of the cage onto the top of my toilet bowl! hehe..and just stood there..i took many many pictures! but i dunno how to upload them here...yukeet or yunhua teach meeee! :) by the time i got her in i was all sweating! and i took a small container of food for her..to attempt to bond more wif her..but naughty her kicked it down! and all the colourful pieces of food spilled onto my toilet floor! argh... but nvm la...
should let her fly more actually...i wanna tame her! but dunno if its too late..i wanna let her be able to stand on my finger..without attempting to bite me...but she's still cute..letting me kiss her by putting her beak on the cage metal...ahhh soo cute!!!

back from malaysia!! :)

haha just came back todayy..the trip wasnt exactly fun or exciting..but somehow i miss it! maybe i just enjoy being in another country and staying in a hotel! feel so xing fu! holidays are always nice..cos u have a good excuse to slack and relax..and not do any work at all..though the fact that i haven really studied for my common tests yet was always at the back of my mind..and holidays remind me of the past..when i could just go to another country with the sole aim of having fun...

the bus ride was damn long..but of cos piggy me was sleeping like 80% of the 5hr journey..the seat was really comfortable la! those kind u can lean ur head back and rest without feeling u're straining ur neck..so even when i woke up and felt i slept enough, i could easily close my eyes and go back to sleep..so ya..and it was too comfortable that i din feel like opening my bag to take anything else to do..hehe

it was supposed to be a shopping trip la..that's why was a little boring..and chinatown was damn damn damn crowded i see oredy don feel like walking..and so funny on the 2nd day we went to klcc..then ouou and me din wanna shop..so we went to the science centre..wanted to go for this supposedly exciting tour..which needed 3 hrs so couldnt..and the queue was damn long too! so we had no choice but to go for this funzone thing oso inside the sci centre..but its supposed to be for kids la! then apart from the children and their parents i think we were the only teenagers lor...then the worst part was the balloon sculpturing! we just went for fun la..nway no one knows us wad..then when all the small little kids whose height reached our wasists queued for the balloons, we queued too! haha then the guy who taught was laughing at us! hehe but nvm laa at least we had fun... then the place quite interesting la..mini science centre..

the hotel room v nice! cos it was damn big! and each of us got a queen sized bed i think..so shuang..so big...so of cos i spent most of my time sleeping..could have talked thru the nite actually but the bed too comfortable le..

then the bus so high tech one..can watch movie! though had to strain my eyes to watch the small tv right in front when i was 3/4 from the front of the bus..watched pirates of the carribean and madagascar..though i was sleeping thru half the movie again..hehe..cos if i wanna watch must prop my seat upright..so i cldnt be bothered..

but im still gonna die for my common tests!hope i don slack..going to ouou's hse tmr! bin and xiaogui too! oh nway my mummy said i was very boring to shop wif..hehee no lor

such a fun dayy!

shitt i think i get addicted to things v easily! yk introduced this game to me last nite and i played till ard 3 in the morning!! its called the mystery of time and space..quite challenging la..v nicee...go see!! just go google and type that name in..and click on the first link..and just go play! but it'll take hrs! at least for not so smart ppl like me....and she said wanna tell me another game..called chasms or sth..haha think i better not noe la..or not i'll play non stop again...my mummy nagged at me today for playing too much! and she seldom does that actually..

went to xiaogui's hse today! actually went quite late..cos of the stupid comp game! i played in the morning again..supposed to go at 2..but in the end only went at 3..so that i could finish my 13 levels!hehe...then went there and slacked la..though supposed to do maths hw..ended up playing the piano and watching zhenqing..then went for dinner..at westmall again! haha..then smart me suggested going to the arcade! ahh sooo fun! i wanted to play the spot the difference game..and binbin laugh until so loud la!esp when we tyco..anyhow slam the screen to get the last diff..haha..but don think they liked it as much as me..but still it was fun! den bin wanted to play that ai hockey thing..so we went to play!! even funner!! damn tiring la my back..then we were making damn a lot of noise! screaming away...so embarrassing! but it was really v exciting la...then bin play until her dat handle flew off! haha

so the arcade's a really fun placee! more fun than watching movies! and cheaper too...so all of u shd go play...haha

ok la..i really really shd start on my hw...but i felt as though i haven played enough..though i really slacked a lot le..i need somebody to motivate me! and scold me for slacking..

and i was just thinking on the bus today..wad kind of clothes will i wear when i grow old?? those lao tu types or teeshirts?? or will it seem as if i'm old but trying to act hip?? haha..and will i have curly or straight hair? long or short?? most old ladies i see have short and curly hair! i think if my hair was lidat it will look like some lion's mane la!
and when will come the day when i will experience difficulty walking?? and not be able to jump and hop about like now?? so i shd stop complaining bout having to walk far distances..cos its a blessing to be able to walk! :))

just a quote..

"Guilt is perhaps the most painful companion of death"- Elisabeth Kübler-Ross

haha i was bored and went seraching for nice quotes..and found this! guess it kinda links to my previous entry..

still boreddd

haha...1st wk of hols going to be over le..but i still haven done anything constructive! apart from typing out the topics tested for common tests..haha v proud of myself oredyy! :))

been entertaining myself by playing orisinal games!! esp the catching stars one..eh i v good oredy lor..can extend my time till 100 plus secs! and i actually got into the top 10 list lor!! ahh i always thought that would nv nv nv happen to me..cos i nv ever seem to get any score near the bottom of the list's one...buttt ahhh! but still..my name was only there for at most 1 or 2 days..cos ITS GONEEEE!!!!!!!! booooooooooooooooo......but nvmmm kick my name out of the list la! humph dowan play le..no la cos its really spoiling my eyes..that day i played so much until my eyes red red one..so scary..after that gotta wear spectacles ar..so i don dare play le..though i still want to..haiya who ask me to be so good..then each game lasts so long one..haha.. *ego*...but its really v fun la..but cannot spoil my eyes..guai me..

nway physics camp was boring..*yawns*..the lectures were incomprehensible la..i just slept..or read yk's book..then 2nd day we sat behind and played cards! then this strict looking old man suddenly came somewhere near us..then we were so scared..faster use clara's doggie hide the cards..luckily nv get caught..but the lectures were really boring la..then they always drag la! maybe only the lab visits were slightly more interesting..

went out for dinner wif bin, ouou and xiaogui tonite! yayy..though kfc was freezing la..cos sat under the air con..then walked around westmall for a while..and blur me forgot to ask them to watch movie!!ahh...was planning to ask them when i was at home..and even told my parents bout it..then they came to pick me..then my mummy asked 'i tot u wanted to watch a movie?' haha..then i realized i actually forgot! haiz..but nway now movie tix so ex..esp fri summore...nvm la..can watch another day..

and good news!! im FINALLY gonna resume my piano lessons! like we just lost contact for no reason..think both of us were too lazy to contact the other..and i was oso a bit scared to add more workload to myself..but realized i actually quite slack la..45min a wk is quite little..moreover i like to play the piano too..so shd be ok la! going to start next thurs..hope it wont be awkward..cos of the unplanned suspension of lessons for so long..

but that means i'll have to take piano exam next yr! but she told me from next yr onwards they're gonna conduct the exams twice a yr..feb-mar and july-aug...so most prob i'll be going for the feb one la..but seriously dunno if i'll be prepared not..cos i haven even gotten the grade 5 book yet! but think can use dec hols to practise..sigh...

n i've always heard of ppl referring to death as a taboo topic..n i tot wad cliche stands..but after thinking bout it..i'm actually one of those ppl..i think of death sometimes..not as in me committing suicide la..but ya..but i will nv dare say it or write it out..cos it will seem as though it will have a higher possiblity of coming true..so hmmm...but it is really a scary thing..i have nv really learnt how to deal wif it..and the worst thing is when u regret..not having spent more time wif that person..not telling him or her how much u love her..not cherishing the moments u had wif that person..haiz i keep telling myself such stuff..to cherish those around me..but i nv seem to be able to put it into action! but its difficult too..how exactly are we supposed to show we cherish a person, a place or an event? for example, my house? i noe that one day i wont be living in it anymore..just like how i moved from my old hse and its no longer there anymore..and i really do miss it so much..budden, how do i make sure i cherish the moments spent in this house?? by staring at it all day and nite? by thinking how happy i am inside here? or simply jusy by being happy inside it...and the fact that i miss my old hse shows that i spent happy years inside it..so does that mean i cherished the times there?? haiz i hate changes..i hate growing up..i'd rather time be stagnant, and the world stop revolving around me..cos im happy where i am now..but i really really wanna noe how exactly we shd go about cherishing things...we keep writing it in our pri sch chi compos..but how do we put it into action? so that we wont have to regret in the future? having to regret is really a terrible feeling..cos we noe there's nothing we can do to change wad has happened..maybe we shd just tell our family members and frens that we love them everyday..i used to do that in the past..wif my mummy and daddy..like kiss them in the car on the way home and say i love u..and before i sleep too..but if we do that everyday..wont the words seem just like a meaningless chant..and lose their effect when u really really mean them...hmmmm

wad shall i do now??? so boredddddddd

haha still bored....

Your Brain is 66.67% Female, 33.33% Male

Your brain leans female You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the timeYou have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

ya im a dreamer, as in have a lot of dreams when i slp??haha.. but dunno if the description is true not..

You Are 50% Extrovert, 50% Introvert

You're a bit outgoing, a bit reserved Like most people, you enjoy being social But you also value the time you have alone You have struck a good balance!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

haha im so bored i shall do more!

haha pardon my boliaoness..its the hols and im soo bored! hehe

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

haha waaaa for once im said to be mature! or more mature than my age! wheeee

You Are 20 Years Old

20 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

You Are 45% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

haha oh my am i that weird??

Your Deadly Sins

Sloth: 60%

Pride: 20%

Wrath: 20%

Envy: 0%

Gluttony: 0%

Greed: 0%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%

You will get bugs, because you're too lazy to shoo them off. And then you'll die.

How Sinful Are You?

haha this one so amusing!!! they say im a sloth!!! okok i AM lazy i noe..

Your Birthdate: December 29

Your birthday on the 29th adds a tone of idealism to your nature. You are imaginative and creative, but rather uncomfortable in the business world. You are very aware and sensitive, with outstanding intuitive skills and analytical abilities. The 29 reduces to 11, one of the master numbers which often produces much nervous tension. This is the birthday of the dreamer rather than the doer. You do, however, work very well with people.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

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