forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past

friday was a nice dayy!! 4/9 gathering..and sheila came along too! but before most of the rest came la..liow and lala came to rj earlier ard 2..n lala was supposed to come as a surprise! haha..so we just sat in the canteen n toked and stoned..until 530..walked over to S11..all of us bought from qiulian ban mian!! haha so funny lor..like advertising for them lidat..i bought my fav meehoonkuey..then like 10 of us squeezed at that mini table..cant even put our arms on the table to eat..haha...there was kwa, liow, bin, xiaogui, tyz, yuna, charlchua, yiyou (so long nv see her le!), ngoh, lala and me! so funn..then we went to take neoprint..since there were so many of us..i haven taken one since ages i think..ya but it was really really nice to just sit down for dinner lidat la..felt so at home all over again..

then later the rest left..then yiyou,bin, xiaogui, ouou and me din feel like going home yet..so we went to mcdonalds to stone!hehe..but i was too full to buy even an icecream..haha..then we all went home! all of us took 156 except ouou..so nice lorr miss taking bus home wif all of them..

oh! n i had this gross dream..maybe ive been thinking bout the blood donation thing too much le..i dreamt i went for it! then this man inserted the needle when i was in some lab..dunno la..my dreams are always incoherent..then the bag to collect my blood was not sealed on top one la..then the man in charge was supposed to monitor when the blood reached the max level..but he din!so my bag was overflowing..n sumhow my blood was accumulating at a dunno wad lightning speed..so to stop the blood flow i just yanked the needle out by myself..haha..but of cos in dreams its not v pain la..i dunno if the dream made me more or less scared for the actual donation..but i guess a bit of pain wont hurt la..its the closest i can get to helping to save lives! hehe..:) though im still a little scared i think..but they said the whole thing's quite short izzit..dunno la..

ok shall stop slacking..v stressed for pw..but dowanna think bout it anymore! but there's so point avoiding it..argh..nvm