a touching moment

just that day after swimming therapy ended and we were walking our trainees out to board the bus, i witnessed a moving scene that really touched my heart..as always, sherra's dad came to pick her..as we passed through the turnstile, he was there, patiently awaiting her arrival..when she reached, he immediately held her by the hand, every step of the way back to his vehicle, speaking to her constantly with genuine concern..he must have asked her how her day at the pool was..i was simply overwhelmed by that unassuming display of parental love..which reminded me of how much my parents love me and how i always never appreciate them enough..how daddy would always ask me how my day went and how i'd sometimes mind his constant asking of questions..when the only reason he asks so much is because he cares for me..

watching father and daughter leave hand-in-hand, tears simply welled up in my eyes..no matter how their children may grow up to be like, parental love is all-encompassing, noble and unconditional..

an aimless life

been thinking alot about my life lately..and the more i think, the more uncertain i am of what i'm doing in accountancy, and if auditing or finance is really what i want to take up as a career. at least for now, i can safely say that my interests lie elsewhere, and i really can't visualise enjoying myself in this competitive business world. nor do i have the interest to even find out more about wad's going on in the market, what the finance industry does etc..which struck me rather hard as i dont know if i'm just wasting my time studying something that's leading to a job i can't really identify with..

i still do wish very much that i had gotten into medicine then..i think this will be a regret i'll have for the rest of my life, unless i'm able to find a career that truly motivates me in just one and a half years..i don't know if it was fate then that things should be this way, or simply cos i'm just lousy at interviews in general..but i find this feeling of regret getting more and more intense rather than it fading away as time passes..if i were given another chance to make another application, would i be courageous enough to give up what i've learnt for 2 years? but at least its something i can see myself being happy doing..sigh..it's just this sinking feeling that's always there, that i sometimes choose to run away from because i know i will feel sad if i keep letting it sink in..

another interest i had was to join precious moments as a designer, but after much effort trying to find out more about the job options it offered, i realised that firstly, it recruits only in the U.S and secondly, i don't think they have a group of designers, but only one designer, Sam Butcher, who invented all these teardrop-eyed characters in the first place! i obviously overestimated myself! haha..i just find the world that these characters portray very beautiful..simple, pretty and filled with goodness..who doesn't agree that precious moments stuff are just so captivating? but anyway, so much for my endeavour to work there and be part of this beautiful creation..

in the process of looking through their website, i found this super cool video of how a figurine is created, from the design stage right till the sculpting and painting stage! i feel so inspired...

here's the link!
http://www.preciousmoments.com/content.cfm/how_pm_made

haha not sure if anyone will go open it to see, but it's just so much talent there! i wish i had such abilities..

another option i was considering was to set up a bakery of some sort..again, i don't like the business side of it..ahh i really dont know wad i'm doing in this course!

i must not fall asleep so easily!

i'm back! realised i haven't blogged for rather long..this sem seems to have passed super fast..i'm already more than halfway through it, and it still feels like i just started school! not really sure what that implies..

glad this school week is finally over..you could say its possibly the most stressful week (apart from exams) of this semester..and i really felt like i needed a breather..each and every commitment seemed equally important, but i just really had no time to accomplish all of them, and with a standard i could be proud of..or perhaps, i just did not have enough motivation to keep awake..i just keep falling asleep! i can really conclude that sleeping is my greatest vice right now! i really don't know how my friends could admire me in the past for being able to survive on very little sleep...it seems totally impossible now! just abit of work makes me wanna sleep already..hais..but yea back to my point, i'm a little disappointed with myself for not being to juggle my various commitments well..and i guess i compromised most on my projects..i'm really lucky i have fabulous project mates this sem who are very understanding..but i still feel very bad i'm not able to do as much as i would like to, or would if i were in a less tied up situation..

i need a break!

recess week was hardly even a break for me..ironically it was more stressful than the usual school weeks..guess cos i knew i had alot of tests and projects due the week after and so i was more stressed plus more than half the week was dedicated to rspid stuff..i just wanted some time to myself!!

haha this post is sounding so whiney but i dont care!

i think i'm getting the hang of planning and running sessions, but i still feel really inexperienced..lotsa things i do not yet know (& perhaps i never will) and really loads to learn! but i guess it's a good learning experience..and i hope that one year from now i can look back and feel happy with what i've done..really glad for all my fellow volunteers in rspid..think they're all really nice and sincere people..which is one of the reasons that draws me back to our sessions week after week! :)

my friends who're studying in UK have flew back already..feel that i didn't meet up with them as much as i'd like to..feel kinda angry with myself..for not making the effort to really catch up with all of them..hmm..but at least i saw them at least once each! :) to ang chieh, vips and huahua, take good care of urself back there k! and to mavis! i dont know if you still read my blog, but i'm looking forward to your return in november!! hang in there for your exams!!

k la im getting sleepy will update again another time!