an aimless life

been thinking alot about my life lately..and the more i think, the more uncertain i am of what i'm doing in accountancy, and if auditing or finance is really what i want to take up as a career. at least for now, i can safely say that my interests lie elsewhere, and i really can't visualise enjoying myself in this competitive business world. nor do i have the interest to even find out more about wad's going on in the market, what the finance industry does etc..which struck me rather hard as i dont know if i'm just wasting my time studying something that's leading to a job i can't really identify with..

i still do wish very much that i had gotten into medicine then..i think this will be a regret i'll have for the rest of my life, unless i'm able to find a career that truly motivates me in just one and a half years..i don't know if it was fate then that things should be this way, or simply cos i'm just lousy at interviews in general..but i find this feeling of regret getting more and more intense rather than it fading away as time passes..if i were given another chance to make another application, would i be courageous enough to give up what i've learnt for 2 years? but at least its something i can see myself being happy doing..sigh..it's just this sinking feeling that's always there, that i sometimes choose to run away from because i know i will feel sad if i keep letting it sink in..

another interest i had was to join precious moments as a designer, but after much effort trying to find out more about the job options it offered, i realised that firstly, it recruits only in the U.S and secondly, i don't think they have a group of designers, but only one designer, Sam Butcher, who invented all these teardrop-eyed characters in the first place! i obviously overestimated myself! haha..i just find the world that these characters portray very beautiful..simple, pretty and filled with goodness..who doesn't agree that precious moments stuff are just so captivating? but anyway, so much for my endeavour to work there and be part of this beautiful creation..

in the process of looking through their website, i found this super cool video of how a figurine is created, from the design stage right till the sculpting and painting stage! i feel so inspired...

here's the link!
http://www.preciousmoments.com/content.cfm/how_pm_made

haha not sure if anyone will go open it to see, but it's just so much talent there! i wish i had such abilities..

another option i was considering was to set up a bakery of some sort..again, i don't like the business side of it..ahh i really dont know wad i'm doing in this course!