forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past

hmmm i dont really know what to say...why are we back to this problem again?
just like it takes two hands to clap, it needs two mutual souls for a friendship to work too..
maybe both of us are not trying hard enough..
but is a friendship a friendship if we have to try so hard in the first place?
its not about how often we meet up or how often we talk
its about making the effort to meet up just when you're free, that makes the feeling so magical
i know you dont want to feel detached too..i've thought about all this before..about not bothering to meet up and share about my life..cos i was lazy to explain everything from the beginning all over again..
maybe your priorities in life have changed, whether you want it or not..
some things matter more to you now, and other things less..
of course its the same for me..nothing ever stays the same i guess
(haha the last two sentences rhymed! i can go be a poet liao)

nway, nothing in this post is offensive or meant in any malice k..maybe u wont like me to say i still treat you as my best friend..maybe u feel such words shdnt be said out loud..(maybe that applies more to love??) i dont know..but i feel having true friends is being able to take comfort in sharing your problems and happiness with that person..and seek assurance should you feel you have somewhat lost your direction in life and need somebody to rely on...

ok that's out of point..but i'm just trying to say thinking that you think about friendship isnt going to help matters..its putting such negative thoughts aside and trying in action to improves things that's gonna make the difference..

taking things more light-heartedly would really help too..trust me..the deeper you go into such stuff the worse u're gonna feel..and it kinda blinds you from other possible positive thoughts..cos you have become so fixed in such thoughts..

don take it upon urself too..its also my fault..i admit i don't share much with you nowadays..i also find it difficult to find the opportunity too..and maybe u dont know, i was unusually quiet that day not cos i had nothing to say to u..i had nothing to say even when the rest arrived..i had other stuff on mind..tell ya soon..after ur maths test i guess...

i dont know if it'll be good if we 3 sit down and talk this out..or will it be better if we just pretended nothing happened? cos if we talk it out, it may get awkward after that, and any efforts spent on maintaining the friendship may seem forced and fake..

i still feel it should be natural...and meeting up once in a while really is sweet esp if we hardly see each other..sumhow u'll just feel happy..okok nway i'm really not angry..not much reason to be too..so don worry k...ya still wanna say, best friends for life darling..