forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past

hmm

i feel happy with the wonderful blessings i have in my life now, but i'm not happy with where my life is taking me to..

it's like a void in my heart that can never be filled

i missed my chance, and i'll never get it back again

i just hope this sense of regret won't continue to overwhelm me later on in my career

i miss my past so much..i hate this feeling of nostalgia..it makes me feel so helpless and desperate and empty! i wanna climb mountains with odac all over again, i wanna play chapteh with 3m, i wanna mug together for the A levels with all my good friends till late in school...

argh i don wanna wander on aimlessly anymore!! but i dont seem to have a choice..