forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past

emotions are transient
but the actions caused by our emotions can have lasting effects
on one's memories, mindset..

i'm guilty of saying or doing things at the spur of the moment..
things i don't really mean to or want to..
shows how i'm someone who's led by my emotions..
which i know isn't healthy..

and somehow, i do agree with this quote,
that "sorrow makes us human"
it's when i'm sad that i feel more in touch with my emotions, my thoughts, and who i am

haha this sounds like such an emo post now..
but i'm just in a reflective mood..

28 april marked the end of my 2nd year in uni..
felt a litttle lost after exams..
(hehe i'm a mugger after all! my life revolves around school work hahaha)
celebrated pohpoh's 79th birthday..
initially i was still thinking of what i should get her, but in the end i didn't, because i realised that the best present pohpoh would want is for all her children and grandchildren to be present..seeing the family together would make her happiest! i remember how she watched kimberly and i grow up..nagging at us, scolding us almost everyday..now that both of us have grown up, and have become preoccupied with our own lives, activities and friends, our frequency of seeing her has been reduced drastically..pohpoh no longer scolds us, but welcomes us enthusiastically each time we visit..and that puts a smile on my face..


celebrated binbin's birthday in the middle of exams too..this is really one group of friends i'm truly thankful for..friends who don't judge me at all, in front of whom i can totally be myself..friends who make me feel that nothing much has changed in our lives at all..binbin was so cute that day, she had a CONSTANTLY RADIANT SMILE on her face all day! i felt so heartened that spending her birthday with us could make her so happy :)

and for sinnie, i'll pray that your lifelong dream will come true..i'm sure it will :) a kind soul will be blessed with good things in life :)

been feeling emo these days..sometimes i really wish nothing changed..

i really hope this hols will be a fulfilling one..with proj id and PA..i'm gonna stop procrastinating and do my europe scrapbook too! and i'm gonna finish watching planet earth..probably one of the most beautiful documentaries ever made..and not forgetting, meeting up with friends who matter to me :)