the intricate balance in our lives

i've been so used to the comfortable routine of life created by my parents, zk and my friends that it's scary to think how much i'll be affected if this balance shifts even slightly.

just a random thought..to remind myself not to take what's important to me for granted :)

sigh how can some people be so evil-hearted? and seem to have no sense of conscience? and ride on their supposed authority to get others down..totally immoral..just hope this trying period will pass quickly for you dear..everything heals with time..the present may be difficult to bear, but the present will soon be the past! i'll always be here for you :)

exams coming soon, must work hard!
so happy can see you all tmr!! and on fri!! :D

mini update!

haha guess what! i've discovered my closet profession!!..................
HAIRDRESSING! hahahah
last sat, on impulse and also cos he needed to, i cut zk's hair!
at first he didn't think i was serious about the idea, but when i first suggested to him, i already had a rough idea how i was gonna do it hehe..but when i actually got down to it..the first few snips were disastrous! i started with the right side of his head..and ended up in holes in his hair! but luckily i was conservative and didn't cut that much initially, so later i could mend the holes by trimming the longer parts that were sticking out! and as time went by (hahaha i took more than an hour ok!! dunno if it reflects my proness or lousiness haha!)..i got better and better! my snips were getting faster and faster..and on top of that, i didn't have a shaver too! ok this sounds worrying cos i think its kinda an instrumental equipment to have when cutting guys' hair, but i tried my best to imitate the effect of a shaver...i was cutting upwards to create the 'slope'!

and stupid zk was DOZING OFF la!! goodness! and he was getting very restless cos he can't sit still for long..he had to keep asking me to pause while he shifted..what a lousy customer!!

in the end, i was rather pleased with my masterpiece! hehe..but zk said there's a bulge on one side cos i cut the other side shorter oops! (and when he went back to camp his friends all said his hair look like kok!! ahhhh so hurtful! but they just thought it was a job done by a lousy barber hehehe)

here's the before and after photos!


Before! (check out the chicken tail! hehe..he just woke up :p)


work-in-progress: haha this was the holey hair that made me afraid to continue!


After!!

haha..and zk made me watch this jap anime called monster with him over the weekend..i never really enjoyed watching anime..but monster is really really good! its full of suspense and thrill and furthermore, it's rather deep and philosophical yet logical at the same time! its extremely addictive..even now when im in the hostel i feel excited by the thought of being able to watch the next few episodes! :D

hmm on a less positive note, screwed up accounting test today..its always my time management..i really suck at time management..from tests to exams and appointments..really need to learn how to prioritize my tasks and use my time wisely!! but oh well, no point brooding over what's over..shall just work harder then! :)

its finally the holidays!! been looking forward so much to a well-deserved break :)

hmm..much as we always complain about how stressful school is, it is always better than it seems actually..i cant describe how much i miss jc..miss wearing the uniform..things that we took so naturally for granted..come only once in our lives yet we always fail to appreciate its value and preciousness while we still had the chance to..and now we can only reminisce these moments as memories..so let us all enjoy every moment, count every blessing that we have..and not only focus on the aspects that we aren't happy with, but the things, people we know we'll miss once we leave uni :)

flowers!!

to beautify my blog, here are some photos we took when i dragged zk to the sentosa flower festival last sun! :)

i think this flower below is very cool cos it really looks like a hummingbird!! do any of you know its name?


pretty photo by yours truly!


this was taken by zk! though the idea was MINE! haha..gotta credit him just this once though..the photo is really not bad!


i like the assorment of flowers in this photo!! very enchanted garden-like..




these flowers are really unique in the way they stem out from the same stem


lastly, a photo of us with pretty flowers in the background! :)

i'm addicted!!

ahh i can't stop downloading pretty photographs of natural scenery from the web! its so addictive!! one photo links to so many others and i just go on and on and on! there're just so many beautiful shots of nature captured by people from all over the world, there's no end to my searching!

i love looking at all these photos cos they make me imagine that i was there at all those places..and the feeling is wonderful..really wish i could actually visit those places one day..

there are a few distinctive types of scenery i'm attracted to..beaches, sunsets/sunrises, beautiful skies, a vast meadow of flowers on the hills, autumn, enchanting tropical forests and enigmatic ones which just capture one's imagination..

i realise i like scenery which is romantic on the whole, but i'm intrigued by those which give me this weird feeling i can't describe..like imagining that i was there in the photo makes me somewhat depressed and melancholic, its a very strange experience..its really impactful..i'm drawn to these photographs..but i'm somewhat afraid to physically be at these places at the same time..

here are some of the photos i saved from the webshots website..the photographers there are really very professional!! hope they dont sue me on copyright or something hehe..

these first five photos are purely pretty ones, with places i just want to visit..





this is fiji island!! :)

below are photos which i feel are extremely intriguing..the ones i mentioned earlier that gave me this strange, impactful feeling..probably i'll find the answer one day..


this is a stairway to a beach..i'm awed by the very strong hues..


this photo was meant to be a sweet one..it still is..just that something about it makes the garden a little sad..i can't pinpoint exactly what..





yup! i downloaded many more actually..but no time to put it all here! hopefully one day i can visit all these places myself, and capture such beautiful pictures using my own camera :)

i haven't blogged in a long time..probably cos those whom i wanna update on my life already know wad's going on in my life..and also my life's been quite normal, peaceful..nothing especially striking for me to blog about..

basically, its been a new semester in my first year of uni..been coping ok so far..was thrown into 4 classes with totally new faces around me..but luckily i've made a few friends..of which a few have exactly the same timetable as me..but im stll closest to my friends i made last sem..pris, wei, kezia..feel really secure with them..and i can be totally myself..

been quite busy with other commitments apart from sch work..abit of hall stuff but not so much anymore (jx and i were in the mascot!! haha guess wad we were!! i was a cloud and she was a shrub! oh man i dont remember doing sth lidat even back in kindergarten! and i haven performed in front of such a large audience in such a LONG time man...since...sec 2?? when we had choral night in ny and i acted as a ghostly doll who sat among the audience to increase the scare factor)..and quite a bit of cip stuff..mostly for the intellectually disabled..they're so easily contented it really makes one wonder why we try so hard to attain things that are not actually important at all..

i'm glad i still keep in touch with all my close friends..i guess as everyone moves on in life, we attach ourselves to more and more commitments..and its so difficult to fix a date when everyone is free at the same time..gatherings which used to take place once a week, once a month, are only possible once a month, once in two months now..but its ok..as long as we dont drift apart..it does take two hands to clap..so let us all make the effort to keep the friendships which mean a lot to us going..whether thru msn, email or even a simple sms..

recently i learnt something which developed mixed feelings in me..bothered that i might have been too naive? but glad in a way i know the problem didnt lie entirely with me..we all move on eventually..we no longer yearn as much for things that could have been..and we find new activities to keep ourselves busy, to infuse meaning into our lives..if, there should be a day when the rainbow really appears after the storm, we'll all realise how foolish we have been..and we'll be happy, innocently happy, like we used to be all over again :)

thank you..

haven't been blogging much...was lazy to!
didn't spend this dec hols that constructively..
more major things that happened..
zk's commissioning parade and ball, exchange of textbooks (haha!), celebrating yz's bday, badminton wif kwa they all, christmas, exam results, registering electives, our birthday!

shall upload pictures some other time!
thank you to everyone who made today so special for me..my parents, my ny frens, my rj frens, my ntu frens and ODAC!! you guys were really sweeet :) i feel so blessed :)
and thanks to mr shah who kindly invited all of us to his hse bearing the consequence of his hse getting messed up!
i really enjoyed today :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIPS!!

hehe hope you're enjoying yourself over in uk..u seem to be! which is great :) we really miss you a lot quick come back in march/april next yr then we can all meet up and play and all again! study hard and take care of yourself too ok! :)

hope today will be great for u! :D

i shall revive my blog with some photos!


bin and i arrived at paragon early and were mesmerized by the christmas decorations!we've been too cooped up at home studying that we totally forgot christmas was just around the corner! don't you just love the whole jolly atmosphere of christmas?? :)




its not very clear here but the christmas lights in the background are very pretty!




hehe zk's damn good at the bunny game at orisinal! i like the music..its very addictive! he's very fascinated by how the bunny can fly across the sky haha!

here are some pictures of the sunset at west coast park again! we made it just in time! the sun sets damn fast lor..within 5 min it just disappears! we were literally running all the way just to catch it going down! it was a lucky day :D






hmm my hols are rather boring! am i fated to be a boring person???? :x

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRR!!

yipee!! :D

but i dunno wad to do wif my time! :(