one year without you..

hmmm time really flies..
so many things can happen in a year
but still, even if it were possible for us to know what's gonna happen next i wouldnt want to know
i guess hope stems from uncertainty
and all of us feed on hope to survive

its been exactly one year now..
i still think of you and feel sad
but i'd rather feel sad than let the memories fade with time..
which i think they are already..
i think its true that sorrow makes us human
if the sadness comes from positive memories or thoughts, then being sad is not necessarily a bad thing..

but being sad over things that affect us negatively is just a waste of time
it consumes us and we gain nothing from it in the end
i've learnt that its easier to let go, be it big problems or petty grudges..

living up to my conscience is the most important thing for me..
cos i dont think i can face the rest of the world without first being able to face myself
i wish i was incapable of thinking negative thoughts
i hate times when i look down on my own character
i hate to think that people perceive me to be more simple than i am..
does it make me hypocritical?

aiya aiya then just take it to be their fault for not being able to see the more complex side of me la!
i still hope i'm relatively simple though
makes life easier for everyone..

haha i dunno what im writing also la
hope everyone stays happy and healthy! :)
haha sounds like some new year greeting
but i mean it! :D

ok bye..


you'll always stay in our hearts...