nostalgia

i was sorting and looking through my jc texts while clearing my room and sigh, was hardly hit by nostalgia all over again..from the most unexpected source! my chem s and physics s tys..just flipping through the pages, looking at the notes i diligently but blindly jotted down during the lectures..i actually miss the whole feeling of staying back after school and attending these lectures during which i'm almost always lost and unprepared for..then, i'd always feel tempted to skip them, sometimes filling our time before the lectures by playing cards..at times there'll be others in the class doing their homework too..all these may not seem extraodinary or out of the mundane, but somehow the memory is just so impactful..perhaps its the reliving the feeling of spending time so freely with my friends..like yk, yh, mavis...being together for the purpose of passing time..something almost impossible now, with everyone having their own busy lives to handle..meeting up is already a blessing..

i really really miss those days..

and the recent influx of odacians posting past odac photos on facebook simply resulted in all my odac memories rushing back to me..and again, it was just too overwhelming..the feeling of wanting to experience all of it all over again..is that nostalgia? from our expeditions, taking long bus journeys together, sleeping in tents together, kayaking & sports climbing together..to our PT sessions in school, dinners after sessions..i just miss EVERYTHING! argh..

recently, it feels as though alot happened in my life..i guess its mainly cos of rspid recruitment..but when responsibility has been thrust onto your shoulders when you're hardly prepared for it, you're just forced to grow up and rise up to the occasion..i still don't feel confident of being decisive and rational, and i feel demoralized by that..i'll learn i guess..but i'm still really really glad i have the rest of the RSPID family to rely on..i feel blessed to have known this genuine and kind-hearted group of people...i'll never regret joining rspid..even if it has greatly compromised on my time to do other things..seeing the little adorable antics of our trainees week after week is just enough to make my week! :)

on a separate note, how much should one give to a friendship? when it hurts you over and over again, what should you do? is nonchalance really the best way out? but it's not so easy to remain nonchalant in the first place..did it really have to be this way? i don't know..what else can i do anyway?

i shall be random here and post a picture of my beloved rainbow and sunshine for all of you who miss them! hehe