instead of feeling relieved after my very last NTU paper, i felt even more stressed than before it! cos i'd been putting off mugging for the cfa exam till then, and i could already imagine how stressed i'd be trying to race against time, especially since i essentially had only 2 weeks to memorise 6 textbooks after taking away the 2 weeks i went on holiday with my family!
i even brought a tb overseas to mug, not that it was very productive though..but i kinda detested the nagging feeling that when we were not on the roads, i should be intensively flipping the tb instead of just chilling out and lazing around in the guesthouses..i didn't like the feeling that i couldn't slack when i'd ought to have! still, being on a holiday kinda numbed the stress and the pressurising feeling of time being too tight felt more distant than pressing..this i appreciated during the trip, but certainly not when i returned to singapore and realised the mess i was in!!
staying at home every single day (not exagerrating) for 2 weeks (except to celebrate daddy's birthday & buy kiwi!), bringing my textbooks everywhere i go around the house! super no life right..but somehow i didn't even feel deprived of not going out at all! maybe cos i'm quite a stay-at-home person..my indulgences were playing with kiwi (my new pet bird) and researching on google about sun conures (kiwi's breed)..i would get hooked on reading site after site, relishing in learning about other owners' sweet experiences with their sun conures, and also how to take care of them..
i'll write more about kiwi in another post!
so anyway....i've really been looking forward to this day..when i can TRULY SLACK AND DO WHATEVER I WANT FOR ONE MONTH (before i start contributing to the productivity of singapore's labour force on 12th july!)...now THIS was what i was supposed to feel on 5th may after AA306 paper!! hahaha
my mind is filled with sooooo many things i have to do, that i don't even think one month is enough! but i'm excited to start on my various tasks (hmm except packing my room and having to throw out notes that i've kept since secondary school- i guess i will never need them in my life anymore? but i like to keep them so that when i go through them in future, i can remember how it was taught in my classroom, and i'll instantly be transported back in time to those moments when i was a young student; i'll remember events, people that surrounded my attendance of that particular lesson..it really helps jolt awake memories that would otherwise be hidden in the recesses of my brain..)
my holiday tasks *exciteddd*:
- overdue birthday presents
- sort out UK photos + select for developing + scrapbook! think this will take up almost half my holidays already
- pack room; clear stacks of notes cluttering up my floor
- clear old clothes
- bond with kiwi, and sunsun of cos- hope to establish a strong foundation for my relationship with kiwi, for her to be a good girl, and also to adjust well to my reduced presence once i start working. would hope to teach her some basic commands, like stepping up on to my hand not only when she wants to play + introduce her to more foods (currently i'm still handfeeding her as she's still a baby!)
- meet up with my close friends!
- L4D2!!
well anyway i wanted to thank those very sweet friends who messaged me to wish me luck for the exam..i felt touched yet ashamed at the same time cos it seems as though i've been too whiney and attracted too much attention that so many people would know and remember it..but i didn't know how else to explain my absence from sessions or why i couldn't meet up with other friends; when i said i have to study for an exam, ppl would naturally ask what exam..and i felt that only by letting my friends know the stress of it could i make up for the fact that i appeared 'too busy for them'??
but thank you sinnie (whom i love keeping in touch with), diana dear (who sweetly came over to my house twice just to accompany me while she was so bored!), jingjing, chujie, yaoyao, peipei, xiuxia, cb, edmund, reuben (haha i didn't even noe how you knew about it la!), zq, pillow, and kezia (who sent me an internet sms all the way from new york! hehe) for making my otherwise usually dead handphone more lively for once!
friends who are free, i'm available all the time if you need someone for company! :D
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