haiz i think i take too many things for granted..things and people that i'll really regret not cherishing until they're no longer around..but life just goes on in such a monotonous fashion that i often forget to be thankful..haiz i need somebody to remind and scold me constantly! i really hate myself sometimes..
i feel tired so easily nowadays that i find it difficult to focus my thoughts! everything seems a blur when i try to think at all..im just like wandering through life..and my dreams are always so real that i often mix what happened in my dreams with actual events that occur in my life! ahh im dead oredy..i wanna be clearer about everything..i feel like im de guo qie guoing..it really makes me feel quite helpless at times leh.. :(
maybe i really have learnt the skill of detachment (if u all read tuesdays with morrie)..like being able to make urself not think about something cos u already know the feeling (most probably a negative one) thinking about it will give u..so u choose to not delve deep into those memories at all..though sometimes, going back to those memories, feeling sad once in a while, all over again, makes you feel more human, and rekindles those feelings which would otherwise just slowly diminish cos there're no more opportunities to feel that way and forge more memories again...
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