forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past

i miss my childhood so much!

i remember on chinese new year's eve in the past, we would all bring along new pyjamas to gong gong's hse..then we'd bathe and all of us would change into new pyjamas!

or how kimberly and i would go into ahbok's or pohpoh's room and count our angbao money together..hehe..im not even interested how many hongbaos i get now..i dont specially like money..but i dont like to waste it either..

and how cheryl, marcus, zoey and me would carry those battery-operated lanterns together on mid-autumn festival..those wif the ahlian music playing one..i remember gong gong gave us all this nice, beaded lantern on one of the years..i dont know where it is now..haiz..i used to keep it!

how we wouldnt mind just sitting there in gonggong's hse arranging uno stacko pieces in a pattern then creating some domino game while the adults played mahjong..then i'd go over to pohpoh's hse where kimberly would be waiting for me..and when auntie warsi was still around..i miss her soooo much! i remember i wrote her this long letter..and i was crying while i wrote it..i brought it all the way to the airport but forgot to give it to her in the end! so its still in my drawer..haha..yupp but i din really enjoy having to greet all my grandmother's friends whom i din even know..just to act like that guai, well-mannered girl..

and most of all, how kimberly and i used to quarrel so much! its unbelieveable la..all the spiteful things i used to say that i cant believe could actually come out of my mouth..but we're all much more mature now..but i really miss how we'd play five stones, zero point (even at the bus stop and during lunch!), all the funny board games...ooh and how i lost dunno how many thousands to u in monopoly..it traumatized me till now! hahah so i don enjoy the game anymore..all ur fault! haha..all the funny things we used to do..its really nv ending la..picking pebbles from the AIA near ur changi house..bathing together using ur funny timotei shampoo at east coast..all our role playing when i'd be the maid!!! haha..ahhhh i really miss our childhood so much..ooh! and all the 'nice feeling' dunno wad spa service in maingoh's room! hahaha damn funny la that one..and our anamaniacs game!! i remember i even scratched u once in a struggle cos both of us wanted to play different games..and LOADRUNNER! ahhh okok i shall stop here..im getting too sentimental oredy..haha