nostalgia

shit i really miss ny a lot..
how i wish i could just roam around the school in my ny uniform again...
haha though i dunno where my mummy put all of them..sigh..

going back into the guides room was so nostalgic!
i really didnt want to leave..
but had to in case ms ong started suspecting why im taking so long to get a few compasses..
i opened the cupboard..saw our batch's pga file..and i really cant imagine myself doing a proposal like the one i did then anymore..i kinda lost all my willpower to think hard for a long period..and the enthusiasm to perfect what i do..im just getting lazier..perhaps the lack of responsibilities this/last year has made me accustomed to being a slack person..always waiting for instructions and not having to plan anything and such..of cos its more relaxed in a sense..but less fulfilling too..
then i saw all the camp booklets..past and new ones..realized how much i lost touch with guides..i dont even know who's the cl or acl now..wonder if everything's still the same..i feel so old suddenly..like if i was in ny i would think a j2's damn old..but im actually one myself already! i don't even feel any transition at all..i still feel i belong to sec 4..or j1 at least..
i miss selling cookies, baking in the home econs room for all the reasons in the world like teachers day, mothers day, homemakers badge...pioneering sessions, outdoor cooking, long and tiring debriefs, roll call, GUIDES CAMP!! and even testwork! haiz there're just so much more to guides really..never thought i'd miss it so much..never really imagined myself to be this superenthu guide who's damn on and committed to the cca..but i guess i really learnt a lot from it, and forged many memories to look back upon now, that i never thought were events very much worth remembering at that moment itself..ahhh...

I REALLY MISS NANYANG!!! :'(
saw mr chan..haha as usual he was being kiasu and asking us to keep our physics and wadeva subjects files for his son's reference next yr! omg...

tyz and i sat at the bbq bench near the quadrangle to discuss odac after that..and it so reminded me of the pre-olevels period..where we'd stay back almost everyday to study..i remember the kittens too! we were all at a loss as to how to keep them..and the free leftovers from the receptions! hehe..cheapskate!

haha the structure of this entry is horrible! so messy unlike neat me..

i don't even know if i should be feelinig happy or sad..