forgiveness is giving up all hope of a better past

im really starting to feel the jitters! i guess starting the first day of work in a faraway land, away from my family and friends, does not present pleasant expectations to a less-than-independent me..

i have so many silly worries:

• what if nobody likes me?
• what if i can't fit into the outspoken, maybe aggressive, nature of all the new recruits?
• what if i can't get ready in time and miss the daily morning shuttle bus?
• what if i fall asleep during the training?
• what if i stutter while networking with senior management?
• what if my lack of current affairs knowledge makes me appear silly in front of the others?
• what if i screw up the presentation we have to make at the end?

haha you know sometimes i just wish we didn't have to go to hk..i don't mind just working and working and working in singapore from the very beginning! i haven't even started packing, nor properly learnt the various functions in excel, nor enriched myself with the latest financial news around the world..can't believe what a great procrastinator i am..

i think the biggest message i gotta tell myself is: cherish this opportunity and learn to be independent!!!!!

the week right after i return is my convocation already..after that, i'll officially have no more ties to the student world :( i miss it already..i actually miss course registration! relived the whole 'excitement' when i helped jingjing register! she's always such a worrywart and scaredycat she somehow feels i click faster than her and got me to help her click from my home even while she was in stars planner!!

on a sidenote, here's a piece of advice to everyone NEVER to take lozenges (at least those with antibiotic properties) on a empty stomach! i sucked one in the afternoon, and was left feeling terribly nauseous the whole day, it's HORRIBLE! i had diarrhoea too, so to be honest i don't really know if its the lozenges, but everything started after i popped it into my mouth! and my mummy told me she experienced the same thing yesterday too..had no appetite for dinner at all but tried to eat a little at the coffee shop..when we walked back to the car i couldn't control it anymore and just threw up! urgh! haven't vomitted in a long time, but it was a GREAT relief man! i felt sooooo much better after that :D but yes, i'll never eat that brand of lozenges again!!

to all my friends, meet up and play when i'm back okie! will be back on 23rd july, friday!